(MUST READ) Deja Vu is coming to hunt me..

I have many dreams in life, and NO its not about personal ambition and interest to fulfill.. its Dreams we always have in sleep. I only can remember some that being important to remember back and it happens either after I woke up or sometimes later in life progresses. I will name a few here.

CASE 1:
It happens when I was in Standard 6 (Sam Tet), I was in the middle class, during my sleep I saw myself did not hand in my work and get scold and punished. And the next day, I believe I have finished all my homework, then I went to school and my friend ask me to hand in the Chinese caligraphy work.. and I missed that! Yeap, it all happens according to what I saw in Dream that day.

Case 2:
Its during my Form 5 SPM, I dream about sitting the Bahasa Malaysia paper (Karangan) and saw in my dream the question of that day. Its a week before the exam, so I suddenly wake up and memorized the whole thing. On the day of the exam, it really came out the same question..

Case 3:
I dream of the Dead and the Living. (I was unharm.. ) Its about 6 months before it happened. I saw my great grandfather, my great grand mother, my dead uncles and dead aunties.. sitting on a row of chairs.. I saw myself was about to leave the place to head for home in Ipoh but forgotten to take something and turn back in.. The thing is, in that row of chairs, there is ONE chair unseated.. then I saw my grandfather (whom at that time still alive) take that sit.. it make it a sign.. I didnt realized it as I thought its just a dream.. I dont want my DREAMS to just take place over my life.. i just ignore it. but my grandfather died six months later..

Case 4:
This is a rare scenario where I have a longest dream in my life that night. I saw myself and my dream is having the same scenarios.. I saw the same people, Same place i walked, and same thing people talked with me. That time I was studying in Kampar (TARC)..

Case 5:
I Stoped my Business Admin in Kampar and head to the main campus. There I have my first Black and white Dream, or maybe just people is in color. The building is in Black, people wore black cloths. I thought its a funeral.. but it looks like a college.. yeap, it all happens again according to what I dream.. LimKokWing University.. thats where I been next..

case 6..
Dream of being cheated my a ex boss..
and yes, it happens again..

Case 7:
being unemployed.. and I saw myself being so lonely in life..all talks money..

Ultimate CASE:
The case is not occuring to me because the time I dream about it when I was after SPM! I saw in dream of a Man, he really looks like me, (or maybe its the real ME in reality, I can always sense something correctly, got 98% correct) in his Mid age. I am lying in a place, most probably in a hospital bed..! Either Dying or alive.. if I am dying, at least this blog will be remembered and be as a last word of mine to any of you who have not have the chance to know me yet.. or shy or scared.. and yes.. I have this feeling that I am about to take the step in my dreams now.. or later.. because I have not go to comfirm with the doctor the tumor like thing on my body is a cancer or NOT.. I just check the internet and the precentage of being a YES is almost 80%..

The question is, I do not have any real DREAMS or the happenings which can be seen in my DREAMS after my mid age! its all about before my mid age! Meaning, I really really want to make you all my friends, I really want to.. I am sad in life, that I am not a great starter in friendship.. If I did die according to my Dream.. well, at least I have someone, friends who remembers me.. Yes, I know its going to happen.. Theres no reincarnation in life as I belief, because, if there is, no one knows or you dont remember anyone in new life, so its NO next life.. I am praying to make more friends.. because I worried that the ultimate Dream of mine is coming to hunt me big time NOW.. I really need you .. all.. I am really not a very happy person, but force myself to make others happy in life thats what I want to see. Life is short, and NO its not I am thinking too much, but if it is, those DREAMS wont stick on my life and make it real in life.. Mostly the dreams I had, I just ignore them, but maybe the more I ignore them the more it comes.. Let it be, if it wanted my LIFE so badly, then Let it take it.. I have nothing in life.. and I am fighting for friendship and someone who loves me.. I am sad.. and worried..