HAPPY BIRTHDAY

HAPPY Birthday to myself.. many friends include my God Brother that I love most didn't wish me anything sob sob sniff sniff .. am I not a great person yet? or I am too good to be good.. haiz.. But Today, I am alone at home, lucky today is my rest day, while whole family went to Kuala Lumpur, and my DAD will be flying to Taiwan for vacation.. so today I thought I plan to ask few people I know to treat them eat Buffet maybe in Hotel's restaurant.. on 2nd thought maybe wont be having it since no one remembers.. not even people who has read my blog not long ago.. sad.. I cooking myself.. a western cuisine instead.. with red wine..

April...

This month has alot of great happenings. Yes, there is my birthday month.. 25 april, (if not mistaken its a public holiday for Australia) then, got someone try to promote me and transfer me to another place near here.

I have asked few people and many misses me they said if I were to go over to the other place. Because of my presence all seems happier.. without me, life will have no cheerful time. To go or not to go, I am still thinking. Its hard to get myself promoted, but a low class promotion.. sigh.. and heavy loads of paper works..

I myself were thinking of taking the teaching line, people asked me why after study so high up, and go for teaching.. there are reasons in life we cant confirm with, especially about life and money. Teaching at least get RM2000 a month, who doesn't want it? We have to break the old thinking anyway.. you can't forever stays in the telephone shop forever.. or maybe thats what we do for life.. but I still prefer to give my knowledge to the younger generation. People wont be that understanding if he who think negative, and myself leaning about life and what I choose to be thats LIFE.

And the one thing I cant let go is, unable to everyday see that person haha ^^ if you follow my blog you will know ^^ SAD.. but maybe that person will be happy @@

Happy Birthday... To Me..

My birthday will be soon, I never thought people in the company knows.. but suddenly many asked me the date.. lolx.. I am not any BIG people there.. I am glad that no matter where I am, I make people HAPPY all the time, and maybe bcuz of my character and person, many likes me alot.. ^^ I am so glad and happy.. and the used to be angry people became friendlier to me.. ^^ and no more arguement among the rest maybe and just maybe I am there to make all happier.. ^^

so Thats me.. if anyone thinks otherwise, you should know me better ^^

Friendship with me and all of You .. comment please.. Thanks

I know many people have second thought knowing me after reading this blog.. A blog remains a personal e-diary, there's nothing wrong to reveal my thoughts since I am always try sharing everything with people I know and I don't. I do not feel any wrong doing so.

No matter who I admired or people who admired me, I still take all as my good friends.. but I know many avoiding me, some don't even talk with me.. or say Hi, or greetings.. I am not anyone who acts like a tiger seeing you as a prey, so please see me like a normal friends.. I am in fact able to talk many topics, global issues, games etc. Its good I admires friends, and not a scary thing.. its admires.. but I still want friendship.. ok, if you visit my blog, please give me a comment and tells me what you are afraid of ME! I am open to accept the information from you. Please leave me your comment! I need it..

I know somehow people cant stand a guy who reveals whatever kind of information about myself here, be myself, but after people told me so and I did that, people tend to stop approaching me.. how sad, even people I have little chance to talk with, seems they are reading me by the cover.. I am just not what you think I am, people have diffrences, and does a little diffrence makes a big issues??? Comments on me.. I am sure you will know when you open up and not reading me by its cover.. Just aline of comments please.. I take my friends same as a brother or sister.. I do not make it a disaster..

waiting all your precious comments! Friendship is important in life.

My worries..

What I worry about? I worry about myself all the time..

and I am worry of my God brother.. who always think negative on me..
No matter how much I care to him, he always not putting into his heart and mind. Maybe he dont know how to cherrish it, but if say other country, people will appreciate so much.. and make you the most wonderful person in life..

Well, for me, pampering is not CARING, thats why I am not pampering, sometimes yes I will, and when I am not pampering, theres always a fight. Or maybe thats what makes him hate about me.. The thing is, always say I dont understand him.. but I tried.... I do want to, I understand if always not sharing with me? I mean when you are sad, I dont even know you are sad.. because by not telling, I am not you, so I dont know, besides, not knowing how to make him happy thats worry me also.. i just dont know why I worry.. sometimes, I know his situation, when he asked for my help, I will try to help.. but theres one thing I learn, never say promise or will do, because there are many times when I am alone not in good situation will force to give help.. well, maybe he doesnt know how to understand the situation also.. many times I dont know What I did wrong, he always seems to be always right, and I am wrong, and sometimes, I know I have been used.. or maybe not, i cant make a diffrence.. I still Help.. dont think he sees it or not.. or I MUST help him. Remember got 1 time, went to buy cloths, since I know his situation, so I helped. My salary is just enough for me if spend less, at shpooing, he kinda not controling, I am sad he is happy.. that day spend RM500 on cloths only!.. so I have RM200 left... I try to say he spend too much, but says i am not understanding, of cuz la, I mean whos money is he spendng.. besides, money not easy to earned.. if got girlfriend who spend so crazy, sure the guy will not stay longer la.. I am not saying he is bad, but I really really honestly want to change his attitude abit.. I want to ask friends to help me, but since he says dun tell anyone, so I worry.. I am trying.. but I worry this and that.. but my God Brother maybe thinks other way.. I am not a good person to share life with.. or maybe when he is in trouble only ask my help.. I am SAD too.. but what to do, no one knows and cant tell his name.. I am worry when things gone bad to him.. yea, I am already a GOOD brother maybe.. if for girl, lol she already want to take me in her life, i mean iGirls always wants someone who can care her and take care of her.. lol who wants an unhappy marriage? If ask girls who finds a guy, who dont want me its a lost.. well, the world today is so materialistic anyway.. all talks about dating then Breakups, or Cheats, or divorce.. as long as I remain as who I am, I said What I do I said. promise is a promise, I never break one.. but ppl misunderstand that when I say promise not mean IMMEDIATELY.. but soon, lets give TIME..

No one knows me so much because no one cares to know me. I try to be as good as I can.. it all ended up nothing..

so I worry again.. and sad.. and YES I enjoy be with him all the time..
I wish he is either my REAL brother or Someone Special more than just a Brother.. I am proud of you, because you are brave to face so many difficulties.. I am Happy that you are Happy. Know what? I at anytime will try help you, I am not rich, but at least thats my willingness to give you whatever that makes you happy. I am stupid people says, as if they know which I say nothing to anyone .. I am trying to be someone at the end will like me, share your sadness with me, really, like always I really dont want you to have your own problem face alone. Alone cant solve it.. I am worry and worry and worry, why? because if no one cares you, at least you have me I care.. thats what I am doing..