HINTS:
The Place in Pahang, Easily reach the clouds, small kingdom in heaven or sky.. 2000KM above sea level, Hardly see the area after rain, okok.. city of entertainment..
YES..
GENTING HIGHLANDS..
NO..
After long time staying feels BORING..
But.. Free Lunch, Dinner, Supper.. Free Hostel, FREE astro, FREE Cable Rides, and actually a place they pay us we keep the salary place.. Nothing to spend up here.. lol.. Works, Eats, Sleeps ..
Working Hours 9am-5pm, then get Overtime RM5 per hour.. so you guess it.. and yea, If can I will work from 9am-4am.. haha but thats crazy..
Anyway, I know no one reads my blog anymore.. just wish someone did.. haiz
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Monday, September 14, 2009
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Life..
What have I done for the past few weeks..? Alot happenings. Like, the company I used to work at, as a cheap Graphic Designer and Display Artist.. had now and finally end. Why? Few reasons, everyone seems leaving, putting all the works to me. Imagine working on 3 person workloads and the company cant hire anyone for the past 6 months.. its suicide.. and Design itself is a stressful thing.
Graphic design its not what i like the most, but its arts and crafts. Its simply another art which I can let go all stress. while GD is different, everyone has own opinion, making it lots of comments. Not sure, its commercial designs , Yes, and you need to get some fresh air and since we cant even get close to the exist, no fresh air, no nothing.. so resign.. its common for designers to leave a spot and further its quest to another place, once you worked at a place over 2 years, your basic will automatically raised.
I have started to look for jobs that enquires my skills, education line, perhaps, and I wished... and most loving is visual merchandising, where you can work out in Graphic Design, and window display, the name and titled usually used by big companies, unlike shopping centres where they incharge of all grounds, is usally called as DTP artist. Proffessional and also one of the high paid job will be visual merchandising.
Plans to move on, in KL where I wished to stay? I used to stay 6 years in KL , Kelana Jaya, Taman Jaya, Wangsa Maju.. If now I want is Sunway Pyramid, or back to kelana Jaya, where can still sit 24hours yumcha at my old past time favorite TEA TIME restaurant. its rare cuz its copen by chinese, not even call a mamak.
and keep adding more friends, I am still have faith in the thing I wanna find. serious unbreakable LTR.. if anyone have he idea of it, thats what I am finding for too in life, cuz .. back to philosophy.. life is short, and decision after decisions have cross your mind, and been with many breakings, or just 2 for me, in love matters, theres always this No try No gain thing, so just have to find them haha.
still the old me.
Graphic design its not what i like the most, but its arts and crafts. Its simply another art which I can let go all stress. while GD is different, everyone has own opinion, making it lots of comments. Not sure, its commercial designs , Yes, and you need to get some fresh air and since we cant even get close to the exist, no fresh air, no nothing.. so resign.. its common for designers to leave a spot and further its quest to another place, once you worked at a place over 2 years, your basic will automatically raised.
I have started to look for jobs that enquires my skills, education line, perhaps, and I wished... and most loving is visual merchandising, where you can work out in Graphic Design, and window display, the name and titled usually used by big companies, unlike shopping centres where they incharge of all grounds, is usally called as DTP artist. Proffessional and also one of the high paid job will be visual merchandising.
Plans to move on, in KL where I wished to stay? I used to stay 6 years in KL , Kelana Jaya, Taman Jaya, Wangsa Maju.. If now I want is Sunway Pyramid, or back to kelana Jaya, where can still sit 24hours yumcha at my old past time favorite TEA TIME restaurant. its rare cuz its copen by chinese, not even call a mamak.
and keep adding more friends, I am still have faith in the thing I wanna find. serious unbreakable LTR.. if anyone have he idea of it, thats what I am finding for too in life, cuz .. back to philosophy.. life is short, and decision after decisions have cross your mind, and been with many breakings, or just 2 for me, in love matters, theres always this No try No gain thing, so just have to find them haha.
still the old me.
Friday, August 21, 2009
Ahh.. Tired life..
Well, I am not updating anything recently, just here to write a few words and wait for the time and I will let all know what happen to me.
wait everyone..
wait everyone..
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Karma..
Before my return to Ipoh, I used to stay in KL, or better say Petaling Jaya. After my College at TARC, I went on to study at LimKokWing Uni, and worked at Win's Art .. a stationery and print shop well known by many colleges. But in that 2 years working there, I have asked the boss to pay me EPF and socso, but they always say the same thing every month. Its not right I work so hard and still want cheat me.
Recently I heard of news that the owner of Win's art pass away.. for me definately with many feelings. I am not cold blooded but its just KARMA.. that couple believes in it but NEVER put it work.. or practice. And I have heard its closed down permanently. Not sure its true.. But after I left that place I say, that boss will get punished for what bad stuff he did.. and at the same time wish they will fail in business. All my friends betrays me and say I am wrong, but I asked what is wrong when the boss cheated you? So all my friends no longer contact me. I am guilty? actually a victim..
Recently I heard of news that the owner of Win's art pass away.. for me definately with many feelings. I am not cold blooded but its just KARMA.. that couple believes in it but NEVER put it work.. or practice. And I have heard its closed down permanently. Not sure its true.. But after I left that place I say, that boss will get punished for what bad stuff he did.. and at the same time wish they will fail in business. All my friends betrays me and say I am wrong, but I asked what is wrong when the boss cheated you? So all my friends no longer contact me. I am guilty? actually a victim..
Monday, June 22, 2009
Super William..
Everyone starts shouting my NAME from all 4 direction..
Like I have said, I am easily get famous no matter I go.. I make the environment happy in here.. but in the next 2 months, I better start getting prepared, CHANGE job.. I had enough of CHINA MAN business.. I have letting them to know, once the person back from maternity leave, its time for me to leave. I will go back to X junction and find jobs again. only after get job only I Throw my badges to the company.. I am tired.. sometimes people dont like me, but I hope they will one day change their mindset and know me better ..
Like I have said, I am easily get famous no matter I go.. I make the environment happy in here.. but in the next 2 months, I better start getting prepared, CHANGE job.. I had enough of CHINA MAN business.. I have letting them to know, once the person back from maternity leave, its time for me to leave. I will go back to X junction and find jobs again. only after get job only I Throw my badges to the company.. I am tired.. sometimes people dont like me, but I hope they will one day change their mindset and know me better ..
Saturday, May 30, 2009
It has begun..
What has begun?
My name is growing again.. like I said in my past blog, I always be the eye catching one wherever I go..
Now people start blaming me that I transfer here and make a pretty girl from quiet to sudden active again lol.. and yea, she start to ask me alot, and always want to see me.. and another girl always talk naughty stuff to me to make me wonder haha.. I transfer here to give face to the person who invites me to work here, and will at least work for another 1 year before I say GOOD BYE and no more CHINA MAN business in life.. Boring and NO LIFE at all work. No private time, and you cant be loyal forever to one place unless you get HIGH pay.. and it is a JOB to me. Here I wish the blogger friend of mine, BRYAN, go catch your dream and always be happy in life. satisfaction in life? There isnt any in LIFE. But you must try get 60% of that 100% Good luck to him hope in future we be able to meet la and then will see him in good and healthy and RICH condition. GAMBATEH.
My name is growing again.. like I said in my past blog, I always be the eye catching one wherever I go..
Now people start blaming me that I transfer here and make a pretty girl from quiet to sudden active again lol.. and yea, she start to ask me alot, and always want to see me.. and another girl always talk naughty stuff to me to make me wonder haha.. I transfer here to give face to the person who invites me to work here, and will at least work for another 1 year before I say GOOD BYE and no more CHINA MAN business in life.. Boring and NO LIFE at all work. No private time, and you cant be loyal forever to one place unless you get HIGH pay.. and it is a JOB to me. Here I wish the blogger friend of mine, BRYAN, go catch your dream and always be happy in life. satisfaction in life? There isnt any in LIFE. But you must try get 60% of that 100% Good luck to him hope in future we be able to meet la and then will see him in good and healthy and RICH condition. GAMBATEH.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Red Face..
Today I went back to old company just to return my uniform, and I have stand and stare at that person without being notice for at least 10 minutes, by the time that person turns and stares at me, saw that person have red face huhu..
Thursday, my promise to treat a group go Kbox have lunch. I hope he will join us.. I wish.. he does not mind .. but I know he wont, because he doesn't know who is going and who to ask.. sniff sniff,..
Thursday, my promise to treat a group go Kbox have lunch. I hope he will join us.. I wish.. he does not mind .. but I know he wont, because he doesn't know who is going and who to ask.. sniff sniff,..
Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Lets Have Fun at New Place ^^
Ooo when I work in old place I was very noisy.. ^^ then when I come new place I control so ppl wont say I am 38.. hoho, but they complain I am very quiet.. so I decided to start making the unhappy place and make it into fun fair.. ^^ soon, need some time ^^
I will turn a monkey here.. because this place is so not happy, its time to turn this place happier.. thats just me.. Gambateh to all I knew in old place, and thank you that all still ask me to stay ^^ but i just hoping that person will start find me if I am there and talk with me, and I will be greatly happy of it ^^
I wish all the time ^^
I will turn a monkey here.. because this place is so not happy, its time to turn this place happier.. thats just me.. Gambateh to all I knew in old place, and thank you that all still ask me to stay ^^ but i just hoping that person will start find me if I am there and talk with me, and I will be greatly happy of it ^^
I wish all the time ^^
Monday, May 18, 2009
First Day at Work..
Today I arrived to a new environment to work, at first there is nothing special, but I find out that many people in this place is NOT happy so makes me not happy also. Besides, a guard want to argue with me, and I reply him: Watch your tongue and keep your words to yourself. That guy really want to bully me, but he wont be getting anything from me, its hard to bully me, in fact, I will step on people if they get way too harsh on me. I hate this kind of people.
Return to my office, its way bigger than my previous department, and 3 handsome lengzai as my colleague, ^^ and the department second bos very Lan Si.. and the head hor, doesnt seem to like me.. maybe I am new. But I try to do things in speed lol and will do my best there. Everyone, must try hard in life o. I miss that Fella after moving here, no more parking at same level, no more eye contact, but na matter still in the deepest of my heart ^^.. 2 years staring huhu.. Now find Corel Draw Tutorial.. must work hard hard.. and oh, the food here.. not good compare to the food over the old place. sigh..
Return to my office, its way bigger than my previous department, and 3 handsome lengzai as my colleague, ^^ and the department second bos very Lan Si.. and the head hor, doesnt seem to like me.. maybe I am new. But I try to do things in speed lol and will do my best there. Everyone, must try hard in life o. I miss that Fella after moving here, no more parking at same level, no more eye contact, but na matter still in the deepest of my heart ^^.. 2 years staring huhu.. Now find Corel Draw Tutorial.. must work hard hard.. and oh, the food here.. not good compare to the food over the old place. sigh..
Saturday, May 16, 2009
My last Day at work..
I promise to buy something back when I visit you all next time, will bring back sweets ^^ but since everyone and me have one goal, that would be anti-KEN, I wont share with him ^^. I never break my promise even I said I don't want and just a joke and came back with surprise. Remember oo, I bought some of you Valentine's Day chocolate? Christmas sharing candies? Chinese New Year share my box of Lo Kam, my recent Birthday bought Ice-cream share with you all.. etc. This is just me, Friendship with me, and you be happier in life. ^^ and I know you all wanna know if I am single or not, well Yes, but Love for me will never happens.. I mean, that person also knows about it and avoid me, even though every time I pass by the counter, we both always suddenly give an eye contact ^^ and I am happy just for that. Maybe its a fate, else the guy wont suddenly feel my presence ^^ and give me back a look. Yeah, Love is always impossible for me. Theres nothing easy anyway ^^. But after I am away from this place, I still put the special one at 1st spot in heart. Thats impossible ^^ that that person will at the end likes me. Unless theres miracle in life.
Hoho, there no 100% in life, I wont even betray the other even if I am with someone not that guy in my mind. Because I am those who study LIFE alot.
Sad news came to my ears this day, my friend Norfadzeela's adik pass away because of illness, and I am sorry to hear that. I wish she will be fine physical, and mentally healthy.
To many people, I also wanna say, I like NIGHT LIFE alot, if want ask me out yum cha, gaming whole night I also want.. Clubbing etc. Traveling also no problem. Come on, get to know me and I am 99% sure you be happier having me as friend o. ^^ Just dont get it why people avoid me.. hoho, Shy? or really admires me til avoid. ^^
Hoho, there no 100% in life, I wont even betray the other even if I am with someone not that guy in my mind. Because I am those who study LIFE alot.
Sad news came to my ears this day, my friend Norfadzeela's adik pass away because of illness, and I am sorry to hear that. I wish she will be fine physical, and mentally healthy.
To many people, I also wanna say, I like NIGHT LIFE alot, if want ask me out yum cha, gaming whole night I also want.. Clubbing etc. Traveling also no problem. Come on, get to know me and I am 99% sure you be happier having me as friend o. ^^ Just dont get it why people avoid me.. hoho, Shy? or really admires me til avoid. ^^
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
An Advice to that Important person..
If You see this, just wanna advice you that:
1) Do Not Drink and Drive
2) Do not Drive so fast
3) Try not to get stress, find a way to release it but No Crime.
4) Take care your health, try not to think that you have extra energy to spare and misused it and not getting enough sleep most of the time.
5) Eat more herbs so you wont feel cold all the time, I always see YOU wear your Jacket even its not that cold.. (hoho wish I can hug you and make you warm)
6) Eat Healthy.
7) Remember when its time to Let it Be, just Let it be.
8) Be happy all the time.
9) Share it with all your problems etc.
10) Plan your future well, there are many in this world can learn and built, make way to new knowledge, if want can plan open a company be your own boss. I plan to choose a cuisine maybe Italian dish.. open restaurant, finding partner to open..
I care..
1) Do Not Drink and Drive
2) Do not Drive so fast
3) Try not to get stress, find a way to release it but No Crime.
4) Take care your health, try not to think that you have extra energy to spare and misused it and not getting enough sleep most of the time.
5) Eat more herbs so you wont feel cold all the time, I always see YOU wear your Jacket even its not that cold.. (hoho wish I can hug you and make you warm)
6) Eat Healthy.
7) Remember when its time to Let it Be, just Let it be.
8) Be happy all the time.
9) Share it with all your problems etc.
10) Plan your future well, there are many in this world can learn and built, make way to new knowledge, if want can plan open a company be your own boss. I plan to choose a cuisine maybe Italian dish.. open restaurant, finding partner to open..
I care..
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Last Day..
Well, to inform everyone, my LAST day working in this company maybe on 16 MAY 2009. Any of my Friends and Brothers, you wont be seeing me there working at the company on 18 May 2009. I will start working in a new Branch, unless you miss me, but maybe the person that I wish I could stay together wont miss me at all.. :( sob sob sniff sniff..
Well, anyone also can ask me YUM CHA.. I love it so much hehe ^^
But I will remember all my friends and Brothers de la dun worry.. and that person I will certainly remember always, Dream also that person appear sometimes ^^ Always think gua ^^ I am so faithful ^^
Next week I heard will transfer to the other company, but will go back to old company visit everyone and give an eye contact long distance standing on the person ^^ love love.. ^^
Well, anyone also can ask me YUM CHA.. I love it so much hehe ^^
But I will remember all my friends and Brothers de la dun worry.. and that person I will certainly remember always, Dream also that person appear sometimes ^^ Always think gua ^^ I am so faithful ^^
Next week I heard will transfer to the other company, but will go back to old company visit everyone and give an eye contact long distance standing on the person ^^ love love.. ^^
Thursday, May 7, 2009
Life is Beautiful BUT..
Today I discovered that people who lived in Ipoh for so long and people still acted like they were from the Village.. My superior today go for toilet then when he is back to the office, he told all of us that there were two "Pretty" Girl.. and all go see them, But I am not people who hear got leng lui must go see it.. its like thousand years never see GIRLS before.. maybe I understand the Culture better, Culture studies is part of the subject in college, I love Culture alot. Ih My God, these people really never see GIRLS before in life. And today I did scold one of them by saying, Girls love Pink, but Men cannot love pink. I told him, I LOVE PINK color, and its very Village thinking by saying only women likes Pink. I am so frustrated. I am in no mood the whole day I guess.. really Bad mood.
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
What a Day..
Today my mum go wait for me at my working place to go fetch dad from the Bus station, he has just flew back from Taiwan.. and my mum talk her favorite Stock Market with the people at Gold Smith place lol.. Lucky no one knows she is my mum, else will talk non-stop on Stock Market lol.. because my mum is a MASTER in it lor ^^
Erm, when I reach home, I received a letter, well, its rare having a letter .. well, the letter is for me, but my brother used my name again to win prizes again. WHO wants to watch movie with me?? I have a FREE ticket for 2 person. I can watch with Girl or Guy, unless you very Kampung la that must watch with a diffrent gender.. ^^ do let me know oo I will consider at the end who I will consider bringing him or her with me ^^
I am thinking of start planning to open own company or not, who wants to disscuss with me?? if you are also interested in opening a company, maybe we can discuss a imagible and logical company lor^^
Erm, when I reach home, I received a letter, well, its rare having a letter .. well, the letter is for me, but my brother used my name again to win prizes again. WHO wants to watch movie with me?? I have a FREE ticket for 2 person. I can watch with Girl or Guy, unless you very Kampung la that must watch with a diffrent gender.. ^^ do let me know oo I will consider at the end who I will consider bringing him or her with me ^^
I am thinking of start planning to open own company or not, who wants to disscuss with me?? if you are also interested in opening a company, maybe we can discuss a imagible and logical company lor^^
Saturday, May 2, 2009
I changed everyone..
I realized something about myself, no matter where I go, people seems to like me alot.. maybe its my characters.. From secondary school (my juniors likes me), college ( even till now, many still remembers my name, even people have not teach me any subjects before, ..sigh), University, and working place.. after being there few months, people already start to changed from either fierce to tame, angry to friendlier, sad to happier.. and I am happy everyone is happy. I dont like fighting I like peace and this is what I have changed it. When I said I am planning to transfer to another place, many have ask me to stay, that includes other department HEAD, I know I am just a small character, but maybe what I have changed the entire environment makes them don't want to go back the old days, thats just a perhaps. And many GIRLS have asked me if I have any girlfriends or not, and I don't know what they mean of I am ^^ CUTE ^^ lol.. yea, maybe girls like my kinda characteristic. Eeeh, meaning I have many girlfriends. But here lack of chinese Leng lui and leng chai , (not being discriminate, and I am not a playboy either). but of all, someone already in my heart. And got girls ask me go clubbing.. ^^ thats new, I wanna go Rum Jungle but not go alone, I never clubbing in Ipoh before, but I did go clubbing and I drink little of TIGER ( maybe 1 jar or 2..) while working and studying in KL, ZUOK and Velvet thats near KLCC. OOO have anyone try Vodka + green tea+ lemon?? it taste funny.. lol..
I still not sure if I am to transfer or not, wish someone give me some idea, whoever reading my blog, but i dont think many is reading it.. haiz.. Bryan, Nic, and everyone who used to read it.. wish they are back reading it here.. I did read theirs ..
I still not sure if I am to transfer or not, wish someone give me some idea, whoever reading my blog, but i dont think many is reading it.. haiz.. Bryan, Nic, and everyone who used to read it.. wish they are back reading it here.. I did read theirs ..
Friday, April 24, 2009
HAPPY BIRTHDAY
HAPPY Birthday to myself.. many friends include my God Brother that I love most didn't wish me anything sob sob sniff sniff .. am I not a great person yet? or I am too good to be good.. haiz.. But Today, I am alone at home, lucky today is my rest day, while whole family went to Kuala Lumpur, and my DAD will be flying to Taiwan for vacation.. so today I thought I plan to ask few people I know to treat them eat Buffet maybe in Hotel's restaurant.. on 2nd thought maybe wont be having it since no one remembers.. not even people who has read my blog not long ago.. sad.. I cooking myself.. a western cuisine instead.. with red wine..
Monday, April 20, 2009
April...
This month has alot of great happenings. Yes, there is my birthday month.. 25 april, (if not mistaken its a public holiday for Australia) then, got someone try to promote me and transfer me to another place near here.
I have asked few people and many misses me they said if I were to go over to the other place. Because of my presence all seems happier.. without me, life will have no cheerful time. To go or not to go, I am still thinking. Its hard to get myself promoted, but a low class promotion.. sigh.. and heavy loads of paper works..
I myself were thinking of taking the teaching line, people asked me why after study so high up, and go for teaching.. there are reasons in life we cant confirm with, especially about life and money. Teaching at least get RM2000 a month, who doesn't want it? We have to break the old thinking anyway.. you can't forever stays in the telephone shop forever.. or maybe thats what we do for life.. but I still prefer to give my knowledge to the younger generation. People wont be that understanding if he who think negative, and myself leaning about life and what I choose to be thats LIFE.
And the one thing I cant let go is, unable to everyday see that person haha ^^ if you follow my blog you will know ^^ SAD.. but maybe that person will be happy @@
I have asked few people and many misses me they said if I were to go over to the other place. Because of my presence all seems happier.. without me, life will have no cheerful time. To go or not to go, I am still thinking. Its hard to get myself promoted, but a low class promotion.. sigh.. and heavy loads of paper works..
I myself were thinking of taking the teaching line, people asked me why after study so high up, and go for teaching.. there are reasons in life we cant confirm with, especially about life and money. Teaching at least get RM2000 a month, who doesn't want it? We have to break the old thinking anyway.. you can't forever stays in the telephone shop forever.. or maybe thats what we do for life.. but I still prefer to give my knowledge to the younger generation. People wont be that understanding if he who think negative, and myself leaning about life and what I choose to be thats LIFE.
And the one thing I cant let go is, unable to everyday see that person haha ^^ if you follow my blog you will know ^^ SAD.. but maybe that person will be happy @@
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Happy Birthday... To Me..
My birthday will be soon, I never thought people in the company knows.. but suddenly many asked me the date.. lolx.. I am not any BIG people there.. I am glad that no matter where I am, I make people HAPPY all the time, and maybe bcuz of my character and person, many likes me alot.. ^^ I am so glad and happy.. and the used to be angry people became friendlier to me.. ^^ and no more arguement among the rest maybe and just maybe I am there to make all happier.. ^^
so Thats me.. if anyone thinks otherwise, you should know me better ^^
so Thats me.. if anyone thinks otherwise, you should know me better ^^
Monday, April 13, 2009
Friendship with me and all of You .. comment please.. Thanks
I know many people have second thought knowing me after reading this blog.. A blog remains a personal e-diary, there's nothing wrong to reveal my thoughts since I am always try sharing everything with people I know and I don't. I do not feel any wrong doing so.
No matter who I admired or people who admired me, I still take all as my good friends.. but I know many avoiding me, some don't even talk with me.. or say Hi, or greetings.. I am not anyone who acts like a tiger seeing you as a prey, so please see me like a normal friends.. I am in fact able to talk many topics, global issues, games etc. Its good I admires friends, and not a scary thing.. its admires.. but I still want friendship.. ok, if you visit my blog, please give me a comment and tells me what you are afraid of ME! I am open to accept the information from you. Please leave me your comment! I need it..
I know somehow people cant stand a guy who reveals whatever kind of information about myself here, be myself, but after people told me so and I did that, people tend to stop approaching me.. how sad, even people I have little chance to talk with, seems they are reading me by the cover.. I am just not what you think I am, people have diffrences, and does a little diffrence makes a big issues??? Comments on me.. I am sure you will know when you open up and not reading me by its cover.. Just aline of comments please.. I take my friends same as a brother or sister.. I do not make it a disaster..
waiting all your precious comments! Friendship is important in life.
No matter who I admired or people who admired me, I still take all as my good friends.. but I know many avoiding me, some don't even talk with me.. or say Hi, or greetings.. I am not anyone who acts like a tiger seeing you as a prey, so please see me like a normal friends.. I am in fact able to talk many topics, global issues, games etc. Its good I admires friends, and not a scary thing.. its admires.. but I still want friendship.. ok, if you visit my blog, please give me a comment and tells me what you are afraid of ME! I am open to accept the information from you. Please leave me your comment! I need it..
I know somehow people cant stand a guy who reveals whatever kind of information about myself here, be myself, but after people told me so and I did that, people tend to stop approaching me.. how sad, even people I have little chance to talk with, seems they are reading me by the cover.. I am just not what you think I am, people have diffrences, and does a little diffrence makes a big issues??? Comments on me.. I am sure you will know when you open up and not reading me by its cover.. Just aline of comments please.. I take my friends same as a brother or sister.. I do not make it a disaster..
waiting all your precious comments! Friendship is important in life.
Friday, April 3, 2009
My worries..
What I worry about? I worry about myself all the time..
and I am worry of my God brother.. who always think negative on me..
No matter how much I care to him, he always not putting into his heart and mind. Maybe he dont know how to cherrish it, but if say other country, people will appreciate so much.. and make you the most wonderful person in life..
Well, for me, pampering is not CARING, thats why I am not pampering, sometimes yes I will, and when I am not pampering, theres always a fight. Or maybe thats what makes him hate about me.. The thing is, always say I dont understand him.. but I tried.... I do want to, I understand if always not sharing with me? I mean when you are sad, I dont even know you are sad.. because by not telling, I am not you, so I dont know, besides, not knowing how to make him happy thats worry me also.. i just dont know why I worry.. sometimes, I know his situation, when he asked for my help, I will try to help.. but theres one thing I learn, never say promise or will do, because there are many times when I am alone not in good situation will force to give help.. well, maybe he doesnt know how to understand the situation also.. many times I dont know What I did wrong, he always seems to be always right, and I am wrong, and sometimes, I know I have been used.. or maybe not, i cant make a diffrence.. I still Help.. dont think he sees it or not.. or I MUST help him. Remember got 1 time, went to buy cloths, since I know his situation, so I helped. My salary is just enough for me if spend less, at shpooing, he kinda not controling, I am sad he is happy.. that day spend RM500 on cloths only!.. so I have RM200 left... I try to say he spend too much, but says i am not understanding, of cuz la, I mean whos money is he spendng.. besides, money not easy to earned.. if got girlfriend who spend so crazy, sure the guy will not stay longer la.. I am not saying he is bad, but I really really honestly want to change his attitude abit.. I want to ask friends to help me, but since he says dun tell anyone, so I worry.. I am trying.. but I worry this and that.. but my God Brother maybe thinks other way.. I am not a good person to share life with.. or maybe when he is in trouble only ask my help.. I am SAD too.. but what to do, no one knows and cant tell his name.. I am worry when things gone bad to him.. yea, I am already a GOOD brother maybe.. if for girl, lol she already want to take me in her life, i mean iGirls always wants someone who can care her and take care of her.. lol who wants an unhappy marriage? If ask girls who finds a guy, who dont want me its a lost.. well, the world today is so materialistic anyway.. all talks about dating then Breakups, or Cheats, or divorce.. as long as I remain as who I am, I said What I do I said. promise is a promise, I never break one.. but ppl misunderstand that when I say promise not mean IMMEDIATELY.. but soon, lets give TIME..
No one knows me so much because no one cares to know me. I try to be as good as I can.. it all ended up nothing..
so I worry again.. and sad.. and YES I enjoy be with him all the time..
I wish he is either my REAL brother or Someone Special more than just a Brother.. I am proud of you, because you are brave to face so many difficulties.. I am Happy that you are Happy. Know what? I at anytime will try help you, I am not rich, but at least thats my willingness to give you whatever that makes you happy. I am stupid people says, as if they know which I say nothing to anyone .. I am trying to be someone at the end will like me, share your sadness with me, really, like always I really dont want you to have your own problem face alone. Alone cant solve it.. I am worry and worry and worry, why? because if no one cares you, at least you have me I care.. thats what I am doing..
and I am worry of my God brother.. who always think negative on me..
No matter how much I care to him, he always not putting into his heart and mind. Maybe he dont know how to cherrish it, but if say other country, people will appreciate so much.. and make you the most wonderful person in life..
Well, for me, pampering is not CARING, thats why I am not pampering, sometimes yes I will, and when I am not pampering, theres always a fight. Or maybe thats what makes him hate about me.. The thing is, always say I dont understand him.. but I tried.... I do want to, I understand if always not sharing with me? I mean when you are sad, I dont even know you are sad.. because by not telling, I am not you, so I dont know, besides, not knowing how to make him happy thats worry me also.. i just dont know why I worry.. sometimes, I know his situation, when he asked for my help, I will try to help.. but theres one thing I learn, never say promise or will do, because there are many times when I am alone not in good situation will force to give help.. well, maybe he doesnt know how to understand the situation also.. many times I dont know What I did wrong, he always seems to be always right, and I am wrong, and sometimes, I know I have been used.. or maybe not, i cant make a diffrence.. I still Help.. dont think he sees it or not.. or I MUST help him. Remember got 1 time, went to buy cloths, since I know his situation, so I helped. My salary is just enough for me if spend less, at shpooing, he kinda not controling, I am sad he is happy.. that day spend RM500 on cloths only!.. so I have RM200 left... I try to say he spend too much, but says i am not understanding, of cuz la, I mean whos money is he spendng.. besides, money not easy to earned.. if got girlfriend who spend so crazy, sure the guy will not stay longer la.. I am not saying he is bad, but I really really honestly want to change his attitude abit.. I want to ask friends to help me, but since he says dun tell anyone, so I worry.. I am trying.. but I worry this and that.. but my God Brother maybe thinks other way.. I am not a good person to share life with.. or maybe when he is in trouble only ask my help.. I am SAD too.. but what to do, no one knows and cant tell his name.. I am worry when things gone bad to him.. yea, I am already a GOOD brother maybe.. if for girl, lol she already want to take me in her life, i mean iGirls always wants someone who can care her and take care of her.. lol who wants an unhappy marriage? If ask girls who finds a guy, who dont want me its a lost.. well, the world today is so materialistic anyway.. all talks about dating then Breakups, or Cheats, or divorce.. as long as I remain as who I am, I said What I do I said. promise is a promise, I never break one.. but ppl misunderstand that when I say promise not mean IMMEDIATELY.. but soon, lets give TIME..
No one knows me so much because no one cares to know me. I try to be as good as I can.. it all ended up nothing..
so I worry again.. and sad.. and YES I enjoy be with him all the time..
I wish he is either my REAL brother or Someone Special more than just a Brother.. I am proud of you, because you are brave to face so many difficulties.. I am Happy that you are Happy. Know what? I at anytime will try help you, I am not rich, but at least thats my willingness to give you whatever that makes you happy. I am stupid people says, as if they know which I say nothing to anyone .. I am trying to be someone at the end will like me, share your sadness with me, really, like always I really dont want you to have your own problem face alone. Alone cant solve it.. I am worry and worry and worry, why? because if no one cares you, at least you have me I care.. thats what I am doing..
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Questions to be answered..
Yea.. I know many of my friends keep asking me the same question every now and then.. so here i will tell you all the answer.. hate me if you want, but this is me..
This is what you all asked me:
1. Why you still working in the same old company?
- Its not that I dont want to leave, but truth is, I keep admiring or fall in love with someone who is working there but that person has a lover and dating. just cant let go only lor~~
2. Why I do not tell that person?
-because maybe its just I like that person ONLY so its hard to even open my mouth. Besides, the person do not even like me.
3. Since when and how long you need to keep this secret away from this person?
-Since I start enter to work here. How long? maybe someday when a person is dying, will say it out, at least I wont feel shy if being rejected. (I will blush when alive)
4. your Old school?
- SMJK Sam Tet, Ipoh, Perak, West Malaysia.
Not a good student in school.. lolx sometimes ponteng class, and not even having Good Grades.
5. Single??
-YES! and I do not believe being SINGLE is a Happy thing in LIFE. I am kind like a Traditional person who believes in Long term relationship, not playing or fooling or date a while and break type of people. I am a person who will love another with Full Heart, energy, strength, and understanding. and definately there is no perfect to be for the person you love or person who love you. There are always the positive and negative things, but definately, it will be a relationship that will be happy and lasting. Oh dont talk divorce with me plzzz.. I hate guys or girls who divorce!
6. Are you somehow Gay?
- Cant deny to say I am. Gay is a word full of discrimination, prefer people use the word Plu. Cant say I am. maybe its in the middle, lolx somewhere in between or somewhere near either side.. so if my friend that you discriminate gays, then do take my second answer, so theres is no HATE in life. Gay is happier, and there is no wrong being so. have more girl-friends yikes.. and somehow, you wont hear divorce infront of children, cuz PLU is caring people. hehe (at least I am)
7. will you be scare if people hates you or stay away from you after knowing this?
- Let it be. The world is full of humans and souls. Friends comes and go, there is no STOP in time. why bothers? but I hope they wont. Hate is one Crime that creates more crimes. and most crime occurs because of HATE. It wont be easy, but it wont be hard if someone who accepts me even that person has a lover girlfriend.
8. people in company knows?
-it remains a mystery. Only some guess I am, but no answer were given out since no one ask me directly. I am not that kinda people who like advertise alot.
9. Relationship will it last??
YES and a double YES if one who do not fancy about money in life. Money brings troubles, money brings glory, and money also brings seperations.
10. Life??
-Yes, Life philosophy. If you know me much, you know I study life more than anyone.. stand and watch the life along china town etc.. Life is being happy, I am happy.
thats all for today.
I know many will hates me.. then hate me and tell me if you do by your COMMENTS, and will stay away from you.
This is what you all asked me:
1. Why you still working in the same old company?
- Its not that I dont want to leave, but truth is, I keep admiring or fall in love with someone who is working there but that person has a lover and dating. just cant let go only lor~~
2. Why I do not tell that person?
-because maybe its just I like that person ONLY so its hard to even open my mouth. Besides, the person do not even like me.
3. Since when and how long you need to keep this secret away from this person?
-Since I start enter to work here. How long? maybe someday when a person is dying, will say it out, at least I wont feel shy if being rejected. (I will blush when alive)
4. your Old school?
- SMJK Sam Tet, Ipoh, Perak, West Malaysia.
Not a good student in school.. lolx sometimes ponteng class, and not even having Good Grades.
5. Single??
-YES! and I do not believe being SINGLE is a Happy thing in LIFE. I am kind like a Traditional person who believes in Long term relationship, not playing or fooling or date a while and break type of people. I am a person who will love another with Full Heart, energy, strength, and understanding. and definately there is no perfect to be for the person you love or person who love you. There are always the positive and negative things, but definately, it will be a relationship that will be happy and lasting. Oh dont talk divorce with me plzzz.. I hate guys or girls who divorce!
6. Are you somehow Gay?
- Cant deny to say I am. Gay is a word full of discrimination, prefer people use the word Plu. Cant say I am. maybe its in the middle, lolx somewhere in between or somewhere near either side.. so if my friend that you discriminate gays, then do take my second answer, so theres is no HATE in life. Gay is happier, and there is no wrong being so. have more girl-friends yikes.. and somehow, you wont hear divorce infront of children, cuz PLU is caring people. hehe (at least I am)
7. will you be scare if people hates you or stay away from you after knowing this?
- Let it be. The world is full of humans and souls. Friends comes and go, there is no STOP in time. why bothers? but I hope they wont. Hate is one Crime that creates more crimes. and most crime occurs because of HATE. It wont be easy, but it wont be hard if someone who accepts me even that person has a lover girlfriend.
8. people in company knows?
-it remains a mystery. Only some guess I am, but no answer were given out since no one ask me directly. I am not that kinda people who like advertise alot.
9. Relationship will it last??
YES and a double YES if one who do not fancy about money in life. Money brings troubles, money brings glory, and money also brings seperations.
10. Life??
-Yes, Life philosophy. If you know me much, you know I study life more than anyone.. stand and watch the life along china town etc.. Life is being happy, I am happy.
thats all for today.
I know many will hates me.. then hate me and tell me if you do by your COMMENTS, and will stay away from you.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
In Love..
In Love, but there are 2 question pass back to me:
The person asked me:
Define LOVE.
and the word Understanding.
I know someone, or you are reading my Blog, plz help me, I know I have give the thoughts to that person, but it seems never worked.. haiz
Can you all give me the idea? I mean since you all have a BF or GF, what LOVE do you know and you all define it? and what understanding when you say you love him or her, but he or she may say you dont undertand them.. why LOVE is so complicated haiz.. isnt it understanding someone begins from the bottom and throgh the heart?
HELPPPPPPPPPPP!
The person asked me:
Define LOVE.
and the word Understanding.
I know someone, or you are reading my Blog, plz help me, I know I have give the thoughts to that person, but it seems never worked.. haiz
Can you all give me the idea? I mean since you all have a BF or GF, what LOVE do you know and you all define it? and what understanding when you say you love him or her, but he or she may say you dont undertand them.. why LOVE is so complicated haiz.. isnt it understanding someone begins from the bottom and throgh the heart?
HELPPPPPPPPPPP!
Sunday, February 22, 2009
(MUST READ) Deja Vu is coming to hunt me..
I have many dreams in life, and NO its not about personal ambition and interest to fulfill.. its Dreams we always have in sleep. I only can remember some that being important to remember back and it happens either after I woke up or sometimes later in life progresses. I will name a few here.
CASE 1:
It happens when I was in Standard 6 (Sam Tet), I was in the middle class, during my sleep I saw myself did not hand in my work and get scold and punished. And the next day, I believe I have finished all my homework, then I went to school and my friend ask me to hand in the Chinese caligraphy work.. and I missed that! Yeap, it all happens according to what I saw in Dream that day.
Case 2:
Its during my Form 5 SPM, I dream about sitting the Bahasa Malaysia paper (Karangan) and saw in my dream the question of that day. Its a week before the exam, so I suddenly wake up and memorized the whole thing. On the day of the exam, it really came out the same question..
Case 3:
I dream of the Dead and the Living. (I was unharm.. ) Its about 6 months before it happened. I saw my great grandfather, my great grand mother, my dead uncles and dead aunties.. sitting on a row of chairs.. I saw myself was about to leave the place to head for home in Ipoh but forgotten to take something and turn back in.. The thing is, in that row of chairs, there is ONE chair unseated.. then I saw my grandfather (whom at that time still alive) take that sit.. it make it a sign.. I didnt realized it as I thought its just a dream.. I dont want my DREAMS to just take place over my life.. i just ignore it. but my grandfather died six months later..
Case 4:
This is a rare scenario where I have a longest dream in my life that night. I saw myself and my dream is having the same scenarios.. I saw the same people, Same place i walked, and same thing people talked with me. That time I was studying in Kampar (TARC)..
Case 5:
I Stoped my Business Admin in Kampar and head to the main campus. There I have my first Black and white Dream, or maybe just people is in color. The building is in Black, people wore black cloths. I thought its a funeral.. but it looks like a college.. yeap, it all happens again according to what I dream.. LimKokWing University.. thats where I been next..
case 6..
Dream of being cheated my a ex boss..
and yes, it happens again..
Case 7:
being unemployed.. and I saw myself being so lonely in life..all talks money..
Ultimate CASE:
The case is not occuring to me because the time I dream about it when I was after SPM! I saw in dream of a Man, he really looks like me, (or maybe its the real ME in reality, I can always sense something correctly, got 98% correct) in his Mid age. I am lying in a place, most probably in a hospital bed..! Either Dying or alive.. if I am dying, at least this blog will be remembered and be as a last word of mine to any of you who have not have the chance to know me yet.. or shy or scared.. and yes.. I have this feeling that I am about to take the step in my dreams now.. or later.. because I have not go to comfirm with the doctor the tumor like thing on my body is a cancer or NOT.. I just check the internet and the precentage of being a YES is almost 80%..
The question is, I do not have any real DREAMS or the happenings which can be seen in my DREAMS after my mid age! its all about before my mid age! Meaning, I really really want to make you all my friends, I really want to.. I am sad in life, that I am not a great starter in friendship.. If I did die according to my Dream.. well, at least I have someone, friends who remembers me.. Yes, I know its going to happen.. Theres no reincarnation in life as I belief, because, if there is, no one knows or you dont remember anyone in new life, so its NO next life.. I am praying to make more friends.. because I worried that the ultimate Dream of mine is coming to hunt me big time NOW.. I really need you .. all.. I am really not a very happy person, but force myself to make others happy in life thats what I want to see. Life is short, and NO its not I am thinking too much, but if it is, those DREAMS wont stick on my life and make it real in life.. Mostly the dreams I had, I just ignore them, but maybe the more I ignore them the more it comes.. Let it be, if it wanted my LIFE so badly, then Let it take it.. I have nothing in life.. and I am fighting for friendship and someone who loves me.. I am sad.. and worried..
CASE 1:
It happens when I was in Standard 6 (Sam Tet), I was in the middle class, during my sleep I saw myself did not hand in my work and get scold and punished. And the next day, I believe I have finished all my homework, then I went to school and my friend ask me to hand in the Chinese caligraphy work.. and I missed that! Yeap, it all happens according to what I saw in Dream that day.
Case 2:
Its during my Form 5 SPM, I dream about sitting the Bahasa Malaysia paper (Karangan) and saw in my dream the question of that day. Its a week before the exam, so I suddenly wake up and memorized the whole thing. On the day of the exam, it really came out the same question..
Case 3:
I dream of the Dead and the Living. (I was unharm.. ) Its about 6 months before it happened. I saw my great grandfather, my great grand mother, my dead uncles and dead aunties.. sitting on a row of chairs.. I saw myself was about to leave the place to head for home in Ipoh but forgotten to take something and turn back in.. The thing is, in that row of chairs, there is ONE chair unseated.. then I saw my grandfather (whom at that time still alive) take that sit.. it make it a sign.. I didnt realized it as I thought its just a dream.. I dont want my DREAMS to just take place over my life.. i just ignore it. but my grandfather died six months later..
Case 4:
This is a rare scenario where I have a longest dream in my life that night. I saw myself and my dream is having the same scenarios.. I saw the same people, Same place i walked, and same thing people talked with me. That time I was studying in Kampar (TARC)..
Case 5:
I Stoped my Business Admin in Kampar and head to the main campus. There I have my first Black and white Dream, or maybe just people is in color. The building is in Black, people wore black cloths. I thought its a funeral.. but it looks like a college.. yeap, it all happens again according to what I dream.. LimKokWing University.. thats where I been next..
case 6..
Dream of being cheated my a ex boss..
and yes, it happens again..
Case 7:
being unemployed.. and I saw myself being so lonely in life..all talks money..
Ultimate CASE:
The case is not occuring to me because the time I dream about it when I was after SPM! I saw in dream of a Man, he really looks like me, (or maybe its the real ME in reality, I can always sense something correctly, got 98% correct) in his Mid age. I am lying in a place, most probably in a hospital bed..! Either Dying or alive.. if I am dying, at least this blog will be remembered and be as a last word of mine to any of you who have not have the chance to know me yet.. or shy or scared.. and yes.. I have this feeling that I am about to take the step in my dreams now.. or later.. because I have not go to comfirm with the doctor the tumor like thing on my body is a cancer or NOT.. I just check the internet and the precentage of being a YES is almost 80%..
The question is, I do not have any real DREAMS or the happenings which can be seen in my DREAMS after my mid age! its all about before my mid age! Meaning, I really really want to make you all my friends, I really want to.. I am sad in life, that I am not a great starter in friendship.. If I did die according to my Dream.. well, at least I have someone, friends who remembers me.. Yes, I know its going to happen.. Theres no reincarnation in life as I belief, because, if there is, no one knows or you dont remember anyone in new life, so its NO next life.. I am praying to make more friends.. because I worried that the ultimate Dream of mine is coming to hunt me big time NOW.. I really need you .. all.. I am really not a very happy person, but force myself to make others happy in life thats what I want to see. Life is short, and NO its not I am thinking too much, but if it is, those DREAMS wont stick on my life and make it real in life.. Mostly the dreams I had, I just ignore them, but maybe the more I ignore them the more it comes.. Let it be, if it wanted my LIFE so badly, then Let it take it.. I have nothing in life.. and I am fighting for friendship and someone who loves me.. I am sad.. and worried..
Monday, February 9, 2009
New HP..
Yippee. I got a new handphone.. W660i
I am still new to it.. Haven show it to my friends, but just few, yes.. I went with them play warcraft custom map, which I am not playing for 2 years yikes...
(aiya) sorry if the person read this.. haiz.. (I also no face talk..) lolx.. many people tells me that the guy in the phone shop looks like a GIRL.. but its a guy.. while the Girl looks like a Boy.. lolx.. my God Brother says the same.. aiyo.. I dont know.. but all looks same to me .. so No comment, but all people are nice people.. I am trying to read my old hp for the list of numbers, but its hard to read when you see the screen its like seeing it all WHITE!
(aiya) sorry if the person read this.. haiz.. (I also no face talk..) lolx.. many people tells me that the guy in the phone shop looks like a GIRL.. but its a guy.. while the Girl looks like a Boy.. lolx.. my God Brother says the same.. aiyo.. I dont know.. but all looks same to me .. so No comment, but all people are nice people.. I am trying to read my old hp for the list of numbers, but its hard to read when you see the screen its like seeing it all WHITE!
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Eternal Summer.
Eternal Summer (Taiwan Movie)
Its a trailer cum MTV i guess, the song is sweet lolx and the content is good. About Friendship, and a Love Triangle. and something in between hehe if you know what it is. I have the whole movie. I share this song with you all. (dont worry there is NO adult scene hahahaha)
But i do not think you all shy to see haha or you still a clean sheet.. *Virgin*
Enjoy the show. If you want to know more let me know.
Its a trailer cum MTV i guess, the song is sweet lolx and the content is good. About Friendship, and a Love Triangle. and something in between hehe if you know what it is. I have the whole movie. I share this song with you all. (dont worry there is NO adult scene hahahaha)
But i do not think you all shy to see haha or you still a clean sheet.. *Virgin*
Enjoy the show. If you want to know more let me know.
Famous guy in the company??
Yea, I did say What makes it sounds that I am so BIG in my company.. Not being arrogant, but maybe proud.. maybe I make my conclusion on WHY:
1) many Staff likes to find me chit-chat.. (and my superior being jealous always say I the one talk with them.. haha)
2) many staff knows my name (William) even those who is new and I dont even know their names .. sigh..
3) Some superiors (not my department) ask me out Yum cha sometimes.. hehe.. I hope to yum cha with any of you who read my blog lor.. just a wish.. We friends ma, or brother and sisters.. but I am always that shy haha unless we always talks)
4) Many worry I will quit this place.. don't know why..
5) Even though I am not a super duper BIG in the company, many staff always helps me alot, and understand my situation hehe ^^ thanks.
6) Many people knows at my age, I am still a shy guy but with great heart.. aiyo, and many malay girls ask me be her boyfriend.. (yerrr, I dont want CUT dick skin.. haha )
7) many who always dont like me because of some people in the company, start being so friendly to me..
8) NO matter where I go in the company, many staff always use my hello sign to say hihi to me ^^ (my special sign)
9) many will ask me than my superior for help, (thats why sometimes my superior angry me..)
10) Many likes share things with me, and many send me many compliments, say I am a good family guy, understanding and anyone who marry me or date me, they know I will take care of them.. lolx.. but thats true... but I am not looking forward to it.. Only some knows what kinda person I like haha
Wah if my superior see my BLOG (it wont happen) he will abuse me more..
1) many Staff likes to find me chit-chat.. (and my superior being jealous always say I the one talk with them.. haha)
2) many staff knows my name (William) even those who is new and I dont even know their names .. sigh..
3) Some superiors (not my department) ask me out Yum cha sometimes.. hehe.. I hope to yum cha with any of you who read my blog lor.. just a wish.. We friends ma, or brother and sisters.. but I am always that shy haha unless we always talks)
4) Many worry I will quit this place.. don't know why..
5) Even though I am not a super duper BIG in the company, many staff always helps me alot, and understand my situation hehe ^^ thanks.
6) Many people knows at my age, I am still a shy guy but with great heart.. aiyo, and many malay girls ask me be her boyfriend.. (yerrr, I dont want CUT dick skin.. haha )
7) many who always dont like me because of some people in the company, start being so friendly to me..
8) NO matter where I go in the company, many staff always use my hello sign to say hihi to me ^^ (my special sign)
9) many will ask me than my superior for help, (thats why sometimes my superior angry me..)
10) Many likes share things with me, and many send me many compliments, say I am a good family guy, understanding and anyone who marry me or date me, they know I will take care of them.. lolx.. but thats true... but I am not looking forward to it.. Only some knows what kinda person I like haha
Wah if my superior see my BLOG (it wont happen) he will abuse me more..
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Chinese New Year..
First of all, I wish all Gong Xi Fat Cai.. Yea, I know many read my post without giving comments.. but at least you all read it.. Thanks. But do put comments la, I wish every post must you place your comments after read it.. Thanks all.
Anyhow, I take leave four days. Then I will back to work on Saturday and Sunday, and Monday I am off one day again. haha.. Life is always about working, I am not into relationship yet, I am finding and still admiring people haha, whom mostly have a relationship haiz.. thats very bad of me. I wished I am in relationship because I know I am what I am as a caring, understanding and lasting person on earth. Well, I do not need someone to look so good, that be dangerous. Okay, I will list only 5 things for a relationship.
1) Must not be FAT.. (for me FAT is very not healthy)
2) Matured enough (Its bad that someone always needs pampering)
3) Not always about MONEY. (Yea, many still talk Money first then another)
4) Live a common life (We are not kiasu people, not like our neighbour country who likes the 5 "M")
5) Have the basic and common sense (understanding, kind hearted, joyfull, sharing, and Long Lasting)
Well, it sounds very common. And yet, many is just too chosy over something they feel not right. Many people tend to get someone dating, well, many say they love another, but many is lieing that they love another which as a result, they break up. Even already dating years or months, theres no diffrence at all. Well, I used to have girlfriend before, dating 5 years, loving and caring till one day.. it melts. Maybe she dont like me wearing PINK.. but I like PINK. haha
valentines is coming next month, its another Single life celebration. I wish someone will come up to me and ask me out, a friend, can be a girl or can be also a guy, well, valentines is meant for friends, not just those in relationship. I just wish.. but i do not think people will ask me out.
Just imagine I am hugging someone.. haha (from behind)
Well, Happy Chinese NIU year.. hehe
What I am doing these 4 days? Bought a modem, (not able to online for 2 days already), and on the second day, me and my family went to a lunch (just opposite of the Menteri Besar of Perak house) hehe.. Yes its a BIG house. Theres is more.. I will share to all next blog. And will share to all my God brother details. hehe.
Plz la all my friends, leave a comment on every post of mine. Are you Shy? haha
Anyhow, I take leave four days. Then I will back to work on Saturday and Sunday, and Monday I am off one day again. haha.. Life is always about working, I am not into relationship yet, I am finding and still admiring people haha, whom mostly have a relationship haiz.. thats very bad of me. I wished I am in relationship because I know I am what I am as a caring, understanding and lasting person on earth. Well, I do not need someone to look so good, that be dangerous. Okay, I will list only 5 things for a relationship.
1) Must not be FAT.. (for me FAT is very not healthy)
2) Matured enough (Its bad that someone always needs pampering)
3) Not always about MONEY. (Yea, many still talk Money first then another)
4) Live a common life (We are not kiasu people, not like our neighbour country who likes the 5 "M")
5) Have the basic and common sense (understanding, kind hearted, joyfull, sharing, and Long Lasting)
Well, it sounds very common. And yet, many is just too chosy over something they feel not right. Many people tend to get someone dating, well, many say they love another, but many is lieing that they love another which as a result, they break up. Even already dating years or months, theres no diffrence at all. Well, I used to have girlfriend before, dating 5 years, loving and caring till one day.. it melts. Maybe she dont like me wearing PINK.. but I like PINK. haha
valentines is coming next month, its another Single life celebration. I wish someone will come up to me and ask me out, a friend, can be a girl or can be also a guy, well, valentines is meant for friends, not just those in relationship. I just wish.. but i do not think people will ask me out.
Just imagine I am hugging someone.. haha (from behind)
Well, Happy Chinese NIU year.. hehe
What I am doing these 4 days? Bought a modem, (not able to online for 2 days already), and on the second day, me and my family went to a lunch (just opposite of the Menteri Besar of Perak house) hehe.. Yes its a BIG house. Theres is more.. I will share to all next blog. And will share to all my God brother details. hehe.
Plz la all my friends, leave a comment on every post of mine. Are you Shy? haha
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Let It Be...
I like tis Song and I always make myself a "let it be" person,
less stress.
LET IT BE (The Beatles)
When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.
And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree,
There will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is
Still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be. Yeah
There will be an answer, let it be.
And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me,
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be,
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
Well, these days not able to update my blog..
been so busy that I dont have time to
have a good sleep everyday.
I will write about it as soon as
I can get a day not working OVERTIME ;)
See ya Brothers and Sisters
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Self Evaluation
This time I am going to kick my own ass, what I feel of myself.. I am going to be very honest in this column..
Since at young age, I do not have much interest in particular subjects taught in school, especially those subjects my dad were skilled in (Yes, my dad was a teacher) such as, Maths (I believe many will laugh at me), chinese (although I am from a chinese school), PE aka Pendidikan Jasmani, (1, I used to have asthma, and 2, I have a broken arm since childhood, thus my left arm cannot pull straight but I am still able to carry out tasks :p), Moral, (does not make any sense if you fail or pass!) . So I am regretting not following his guidance. Just for your little information, I am quite good at English, Arts, Bahasa Malaysia, History (especially Foreign history not Malaysia History) . The truth behind all this was that, I do not like to be force my way in scoring A's just to save my dad face who worked as a teacher. (He was in Yuk choy, Jalan Pasir Puteh, Batu Gajah, and Penang as a teacher, all secondary schools). Sometimes I do not feel regreting at all. The thing is, the communication between my family and me is bery limited, they always talks about their old stories, and a word "NO" means you can't do anything (else you be put away from this home forever) , thats a very bad threat in a family, where they still think that scoring is everything, at most I feel that they were saving faces from his friends. Well, until today, they are still the same. Me and my family rarely have any topic to talk about, because before they even answer you, you already know what they are going to say, you get what I mean? Its so often til you know what they will say. Do you think I can find someone dating during school years? "NO". Go holiday with classmates? "NO", now at least I can pay my own stuff that I want to buy. or do anything I wish I can do before. I know its a bit too late, but thats part of my life, no one knows. People always see me smiling, but I have many sad things and no one to share with, talks to, I do not have a BEST friend, I wish I have one, everyone has one.. except me.
I have an elder brother (the family of four), yeah that puts me as the youngest child in the family. Well, I do not know what happen, I am treated like I am the stupiest person in the whole world. I am not able to compete on his examination results, activities etc. My brother always finding something to step on me, say I am stupid, or I do not know everything, and always want to think I am not able to perform well in any work after school and University. He is very arrogant, I do not like him much, or maybe as a brother, I just give 20% just by the means as a brother. When I see others, their brother and sister are always talkative, supporting, and I am so admired to them.
My nature is a Kind person, absolutely kind til sometimes I help too much. But at least I care to help. I do not mind helping people, mainly because thats my true self. If anyone ask for me, I will try my best to do it.
I like seeing people smiling, mainly because I know I had a very bad childhood, and it'll be sad to see people with sad faces. Thats why, I am trying to make everyone laugh by doing or making funny stuff for them to laugh about.
I am a "Let it Be" person, just do not bother too much, when you are very pissed off on something or stress,, just tell yourself, "Let it Be".. it does not mean we do not care, just temporary see one thing to another to give your mind a rest. I always get scolded because I always "Let it Be", but actually, WHO on earth want yourself to see YOU become crazy? Insane? haha you wont be paid to be in such state of craziness! I still care for a person even I say so, because, we have to understand a person without any rush!
I like to go for clubbings. Mostly I went to places like ZOUK, Velvet Underground, but thats the time while I am staying in KL. Oh, anyone who knows LQ (Liquid)? Yeah, I run into there a few times. I do not drink Calsberg, or Tiger.. lolx maybe just order a cocktail sit there chat with friends. (I wish to try that "GraveYard" drink.. , its a mix of few potions hehe). If anyone of you who asked me out clubbing in Ipoh, chances of me saying YES is 60%. Or out for movies, yumcha etc. I really need to build up more friends. If you who read this, and if you are welcome to be my friend (aiya JUST a friend, dont think so much) then can leave your contact so we can plan it out. (if the time you are sad, you can talk with me anytime)
Mindset.. is very open. I can accept scene of a couple french kissing in the street. Which means I am as well dare to do so myself haha. I can accept anyone who likes girls or guys or both, therefore you can now know my charcter la.
About Love.. traditional people.. dating is dating, and will never easily give up Love, will do anything to make both happier. Long Lasting. Its not easy finding someone, but finding someone usually they already have partner.. sad... some even say not possible (not even trying).. some say no looking for relationship (and later they turn up to be attached.. what a lie) Love is everywhere, but I cant grab a single one, not because I am "choosy" but of cuz everyone is looking for a person that suits, I dislike fat people, so wont look for someone weighting high etc.
NOTE: I have just lost my wallet... I went out at night, came back didnt notice I lost it before come home or cant be found at home.. haiz... bad day.
Even though people I have chatted before, and feel shy to talk with them again, dunno why. I look at people a lot, and many scared I am looking at them, now people do not even greet me.. I feel so sad..
I sometimes hate myself, not able to do anything, I wish from here (my blog) people who is reading my blog.. can be friends with me. Ignore those points you hate about me. I am so eager to find friends here. Most of my friends turns out to talk politics, which I try not to step into it. There is much to talk in life than arguing in politics. let us find the similiar interest we have and be friends.
I am scared in life, no one understand me, I scare I have no money, I scare I cant survive, not about dead, but to survive in this world.
Since at young age, I do not have much interest in particular subjects taught in school, especially those subjects my dad were skilled in (Yes, my dad was a teacher) such as, Maths (I believe many will laugh at me), chinese (although I am from a chinese school), PE aka Pendidikan Jasmani, (1, I used to have asthma, and 2, I have a broken arm since childhood, thus my left arm cannot pull straight but I am still able to carry out tasks :p), Moral, (does not make any sense if you fail or pass!) . So I am regretting not following his guidance. Just for your little information, I am quite good at English, Arts, Bahasa Malaysia, History (especially Foreign history not Malaysia History) . The truth behind all this was that, I do not like to be force my way in scoring A's just to save my dad face who worked as a teacher. (He was in Yuk choy, Jalan Pasir Puteh, Batu Gajah, and Penang as a teacher, all secondary schools). Sometimes I do not feel regreting at all. The thing is, the communication between my family and me is bery limited, they always talks about their old stories, and a word "NO" means you can't do anything (else you be put away from this home forever) , thats a very bad threat in a family, where they still think that scoring is everything, at most I feel that they were saving faces from his friends. Well, until today, they are still the same. Me and my family rarely have any topic to talk about, because before they even answer you, you already know what they are going to say, you get what I mean? Its so often til you know what they will say. Do you think I can find someone dating during school years? "NO". Go holiday with classmates? "NO", now at least I can pay my own stuff that I want to buy. or do anything I wish I can do before. I know its a bit too late, but thats part of my life, no one knows. People always see me smiling, but I have many sad things and no one to share with, talks to, I do not have a BEST friend, I wish I have one, everyone has one.. except me.
I have an elder brother (the family of four), yeah that puts me as the youngest child in the family. Well, I do not know what happen, I am treated like I am the stupiest person in the whole world. I am not able to compete on his examination results, activities etc. My brother always finding something to step on me, say I am stupid, or I do not know everything, and always want to think I am not able to perform well in any work after school and University. He is very arrogant, I do not like him much, or maybe as a brother, I just give 20% just by the means as a brother. When I see others, their brother and sister are always talkative, supporting, and I am so admired to them.
My nature is a Kind person, absolutely kind til sometimes I help too much. But at least I care to help. I do not mind helping people, mainly because thats my true self. If anyone ask for me, I will try my best to do it.
I like seeing people smiling, mainly because I know I had a very bad childhood, and it'll be sad to see people with sad faces. Thats why, I am trying to make everyone laugh by doing or making funny stuff for them to laugh about.
I am a "Let it Be" person, just do not bother too much, when you are very pissed off on something or stress,, just tell yourself, "Let it Be".. it does not mean we do not care, just temporary see one thing to another to give your mind a rest. I always get scolded because I always "Let it Be", but actually, WHO on earth want yourself to see YOU become crazy? Insane? haha you wont be paid to be in such state of craziness! I still care for a person even I say so, because, we have to understand a person without any rush!
I like to go for clubbings. Mostly I went to places like ZOUK, Velvet Underground, but thats the time while I am staying in KL. Oh, anyone who knows LQ (Liquid)? Yeah, I run into there a few times. I do not drink Calsberg, or Tiger.. lolx maybe just order a cocktail sit there chat with friends. (I wish to try that "GraveYard" drink.. , its a mix of few potions hehe). If anyone of you who asked me out clubbing in Ipoh, chances of me saying YES is 60%. Or out for movies, yumcha etc. I really need to build up more friends. If you who read this, and if you are welcome to be my friend (aiya JUST a friend, dont think so much) then can leave your contact so we can plan it out. (if the time you are sad, you can talk with me anytime)
Mindset.. is very open. I can accept scene of a couple french kissing in the street. Which means I am as well dare to do so myself haha. I can accept anyone who likes girls or guys or both, therefore you can now know my charcter la.
About Love.. traditional people.. dating is dating, and will never easily give up Love, will do anything to make both happier. Long Lasting. Its not easy finding someone, but finding someone usually they already have partner.. sad... some even say not possible (not even trying).. some say no looking for relationship (and later they turn up to be attached.. what a lie) Love is everywhere, but I cant grab a single one, not because I am "choosy" but of cuz everyone is looking for a person that suits, I dislike fat people, so wont look for someone weighting high etc.
NOTE: I have just lost my wallet... I went out at night, came back didnt notice I lost it before come home or cant be found at home.. haiz... bad day.
Even though people I have chatted before, and feel shy to talk with them again, dunno why. I look at people a lot, and many scared I am looking at them, now people do not even greet me.. I feel so sad..
I sometimes hate myself, not able to do anything, I wish from here (my blog) people who is reading my blog.. can be friends with me. Ignore those points you hate about me. I am so eager to find friends here. Most of my friends turns out to talk politics, which I try not to step into it. There is much to talk in life than arguing in politics. let us find the similiar interest we have and be friends.
I am scared in life, no one understand me, I scare I have no money, I scare I cant survive, not about dead, but to survive in this world.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
A Dead soul...
I am not a very good at building or finding a relationship or a friendship. The only thing I do is admiring people until they fade away in times. Reasons? I am Shy, scare to be rejected, dont know how to ask people out, or start a simple conversation. All I did was a "HI" and .. The End..
Even making friends, most of my friends were the ones who start talking with me, instead of I go talk with them. Girl and boy are the same. Only after that I am always not shy away find them for chit chats. I talk alot. I do admit that I have plenty of Friends who are girls. I do have guy as friends. But thats obvious. Yes I do like making friends, just dunno how on earth I will start be the one who actually starts the conversation. Thats why, for my kind of guy, starting a relationship could be so hard. But building one, its what I do to make it long and steady. I had dating experience before, it last quite long.. 5 fingers.. but Now, finding someone is so hard. Many say I may find the one soon.. thats just something people usually say. For myself, maybe I am confused with own sexual orientation lol.. or just happen to become complicated. Beacuse of my weakness, I am already start opening the door, to whoever is finding a true and serious soul partner. Its not easy to find one, when u happened to see many thought they found someone, but later after marriage, both go seperated! What a stupid thing to do. Yea, its a taboo topic. Have anyone watch these following movies?
1) Brokeback Mountain (USA)
2) Eternal Summer (Taiwan + Hong Kong)
3) I am not What You Want (Hong Kong) ~ aka Angel
4) Latter Days (USA)
5) Formula 17 (Taiwan)
etc.
These movies depicting someone who has a complicated mindset in finding a real love. There maybe no real defination for real love, but it maybe someone who is watching you all along, not a hamsap look of cause. I like finding International + foregn language movies. I know the time you watched these, maybe make you a shock. But watching movies is to know the story line and life experience of certain individuals. It is worth watching.
Anyhow, I am deeply confuse on my own. Sometime may wonder the whole day, people staring back at me, makes me want to ask why, but I just dont dare to approach them. Sometims its a hint from someone, example, always park you vehicle next to the vehicle even though there are other parking spaces available at the same time, or walking and want to make some eye contact when passing the person (when you walked) etc. These maybe hints, and I never have the guts to go for it. I mean both guy and girls.
Is there anyone out there had the same experience that I have? do share with me. Who stare at you and whats your reaction etc. I dont mind people hate to talk about it, because its a personal thing.
Even making friends, most of my friends were the ones who start talking with me, instead of I go talk with them. Girl and boy are the same. Only after that I am always not shy away find them for chit chats. I talk alot. I do admit that I have plenty of Friends who are girls. I do have guy as friends. But thats obvious. Yes I do like making friends, just dunno how on earth I will start be the one who actually starts the conversation. Thats why, for my kind of guy, starting a relationship could be so hard. But building one, its what I do to make it long and steady. I had dating experience before, it last quite long.. 5 fingers.. but Now, finding someone is so hard. Many say I may find the one soon.. thats just something people usually say. For myself, maybe I am confused with own sexual orientation lol.. or just happen to become complicated. Beacuse of my weakness, I am already start opening the door, to whoever is finding a true and serious soul partner. Its not easy to find one, when u happened to see many thought they found someone, but later after marriage, both go seperated! What a stupid thing to do. Yea, its a taboo topic. Have anyone watch these following movies?
1) Brokeback Mountain (USA)
2) Eternal Summer (Taiwan + Hong Kong)
3) I am not What You Want (Hong Kong) ~ aka Angel
4) Latter Days (USA)
5) Formula 17 (Taiwan)
etc.
These movies depicting someone who has a complicated mindset in finding a real love. There maybe no real defination for real love, but it maybe someone who is watching you all along, not a hamsap look of cause. I like finding International + foregn language movies. I know the time you watched these, maybe make you a shock. But watching movies is to know the story line and life experience of certain individuals. It is worth watching.
Anyhow, I am deeply confuse on my own. Sometime may wonder the whole day, people staring back at me, makes me want to ask why, but I just dont dare to approach them. Sometims its a hint from someone, example, always park you vehicle next to the vehicle even though there are other parking spaces available at the same time, or walking and want to make some eye contact when passing the person (when you walked) etc. These maybe hints, and I never have the guts to go for it. I mean both guy and girls.
Is there anyone out there had the same experience that I have? do share with me. Who stare at you and whats your reaction etc. I dont mind people hate to talk about it, because its a personal thing.
Sing along with me .. If you like the band
SCORPION
UNDER THE SAME SUN
Lyric:
I saw the morning
It was shattered by a gun
Heard a scream, saw him fall, no one cried
I saw a mother
She was praying for her son
Bring him back, let him live, don't let him die
Do you ever ask yourself
Is there a Heaven in the sky
Why can't we get it right
'cause we all live under the same sun
We all walk under the same moon
Then why, why can't we live as one
I saw the evening
Fading shadows one by one
We watch the lamb, lay down to the sacrifice
I saw the children
The children of the sun
How they wept, how they bled, how they died
Do you ever ask yourself
Is there a Heaven in the sky
Why can't we stop the fight
'cause we all live under the same sun
We all walk under the same moon
Then why, why can't we live as one
Sometimes I think I'm going mad
We're loosing all we had and no one seems to care
But in my heart it doesn't change
We've got to rearrange and bring our world some love
And does it really matter
If there's a heaven up above
We sure could use some love
'cause we all live under the same sun
We all walk under the same moon
Then why, why can't we live as one
'cause we all live under the same sky
We all look up at the same stars
Then why, tell me why can't we live as one
UNDER THE SAME SUN
Lyric:
I saw the morning
It was shattered by a gun
Heard a scream, saw him fall, no one cried
I saw a mother
She was praying for her son
Bring him back, let him live, don't let him die
Do you ever ask yourself
Is there a Heaven in the sky
Why can't we get it right
'cause we all live under the same sun
We all walk under the same moon
Then why, why can't we live as one
I saw the evening
Fading shadows one by one
We watch the lamb, lay down to the sacrifice
I saw the children
The children of the sun
How they wept, how they bled, how they died
Do you ever ask yourself
Is there a Heaven in the sky
Why can't we stop the fight
'cause we all live under the same sun
We all walk under the same moon
Then why, why can't we live as one
Sometimes I think I'm going mad
We're loosing all we had and no one seems to care
But in my heart it doesn't change
We've got to rearrange and bring our world some love
And does it really matter
If there's a heaven up above
We sure could use some love
'cause we all live under the same sun
We all walk under the same moon
Then why, why can't we live as one
'cause we all live under the same sky
We all look up at the same stars
Then why, tell me why can't we live as one
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