Welcome Year 2009

Indeed there are a few hours to Year 2009.. and a wave of goodbye to 2008. The year 2008 is not my year. Because of the last number is "8" for chinese it sounded a very lucky number, meaning "FATT" or Prosperity. Many World Disaster had a total number as "8", example.. if the date is November 6, (11+6=17, while 1+7=8). at most the disaster had the similiarity, number "8". I am not a Pantang individual, but for me, a number is just something which is created for easy counting.

Lets getback to the main topic. If I may recall, there are many happenings in the world and my life in year 2008. I may not be telling story of International news here, but of my own self. Lets Start from January 2008. (I am sure there are alot to write in this chapter, so plz just read on.) Or perhaps, I may just summarized the whole thing to what I remembered =p that will make it easy to read.

Sometimes I just thought about my own life, I cant think of what is the worth of living.. earn money? get into relationship? marriage? why are we to live for? sometimes I thought about is it wrong to be in some positions differently or must it be the same like everyone else.. What is my new year resolution? Well, there will be alot to hope for, but I will just name three every year.

1) Get a good Job
2) Get into a Serious and Long Term Relationship (do feel lucky if you pick me because I am a great guy on earth, if you know me well, there will be much love and care to you)
3) Able to change my characteristic.

I am sure the meaning of New Year resolution can be anything. Anything would count. Well, everyone wants a good job, and able to change something of themselves every year. Relationship is the most thing people wished for if he or she is not attached. Even these people indeed say they already attached, sometimes its just a lie just to save faces. Do you know a good relationship is so hard to find that sometimes it need decades for finding one? Minus being or having someone so special that many would ask for it. Those so called perfect people are dangerous, good look does not mean they are good in relationship, just just another side of devils. Sorry, I am not giving hint that all good looking one are meant to be this way, maybe just 90% of them. For me, all born the same, maybe its something happens in every process. Faces are given by your mum, its nothing to complaint about. No one is ever perfect, include myself, maybe someone most people like but still something missing.. the looks, or someone has a good looks, but lack of his personalities. See.. there are so many problems in life, stick with it. Change? thats not even being yourself, never bothers it.

I have a friend, he wears BIG ear ring, NO do not think bad.. he got girlfriend. He even has tattoos, he got a Indian name called BALA. people keep commenting, but he never bothers how people talked about it. Just be yourself. My true self is not shown to people easily, if you know me, you will know I am good hearted guy.

Year 2008.. alot of negative than positives. Not much to remember, Birthday I took a leave from work, just scare I get scolded by this guy, my supervisor. He always find things to step on me. From the beginning of work. Everything is my fault. I really hate him, so does everyone. I too are having so much problem in life, money problem too, so I cant think of relationship stuff, but at least having one is not bad, at least can share stories, help another, care and understanding. I used to have a partner whom I have dated 5 years, everything looks fine, til one day my partner gave up on me for another person.. 3rd party. No one knows about it. Not even my family, maybe i keeping it a secret.. Oh and keep fighting on a case regarding my previous Bos I worked for 2 years and he never pay my EPF and socso and still accused me of lying! OMG.. I wont be disclosing the name of company (in PJ) unless you really want me share it with you.. I came back year 2007 August to Ipoh, after 6 long years study and work in PJ after Limkokwing Uni. MY life is in disaster. In the modern days, and for myself, Certificates is not that important, is just a cert or maybe its important. People at KL Chinatown, mostly has a Diplomas, I mean the Qi Qiong Gai.. But they earn money maybe triple or more than those work in moderate companies.

Love.. mostly admiration do counts. If you happen to know someone either a girl or guy admires you alot, and if he or she admires you for a long time, longer than 1 year, that could be a GOOD sign.. he or she really a so called Long Term Relationship people, you will never feel alone or break of heart. REally.. its a real thing. many would love to have it, but its sad, younger generation just only care about the looks, or money. Asing yourself, if he or she is good looking, or rich, would you still stay if they become not good looking after few years or they are broke?? Heart will never change if he is not a flower hearted guy or girl or playboy and playgirl =)

Year 2009.. At most, I wished to get attached.. I have been wondering around too much, wasting so many time, yea maybe my looks is not any supermodels, like I said, if you like a person, do love someone by the heart not Looks, because, the looks may fade after 10 years. Most couples as you see, either one sure be a good and bad looking. Its a fairy tales, Beauty and the Beast. Like it or not I still know I am a good person who never want breaking promises and will try anything to give my lover the best, at least a TRY. Try harder, fall harder, later you will get it done easily with just a finger.

To all, Happy NEW YEAR. Hope all had a good wish for 2009.
(I hope to see you all smiles than being unhappy), yea again.. I hope to make more friends, ignore how I look, be friends or even relationship, talks about knowing the HEART and SOULS. Dont even think of negativities, because I do not eat people. Yea maybe I Stare at people makes them thinks I am scary, but like I said, I just dunno how to start a conversation. Fall in love? Maybe.. if people do not think too much on me, either think of what they will gain in life from me or what I have physically.

PS: do send some comments to anyone I cant see from here. Happy to know anyone of you.