First of all, I wish all Gong Xi Fat Cai.. Yea, I know many read my post without giving comments.. but at least you all read it.. Thanks. But do put comments la, I wish every post must you place your comments after read it.. Thanks all.
Anyhow, I take leave four days. Then I will back to work on Saturday and Sunday, and Monday I am off one day again. haha.. Life is always about working, I am not into relationship yet, I am finding and still admiring people haha, whom mostly have a relationship haiz.. thats very bad of me. I wished I am in relationship because I know I am what I am as a caring, understanding and lasting person on earth. Well, I do not need someone to look so good, that be dangerous. Okay, I will list only 5 things for a relationship.
1) Must not be FAT.. (for me FAT is very not healthy)
2) Matured enough (Its bad that someone always needs pampering)
3) Not always about MONEY. (Yea, many still talk Money first then another)
4) Live a common life (We are not kiasu people, not like our neighbour country who likes the 5 "M")
5) Have the basic and common sense (understanding, kind hearted, joyfull, sharing, and Long Lasting)
Well, it sounds very common. And yet, many is just too chosy over something they feel not right. Many people tend to get someone dating, well, many say they love another, but many is lieing that they love another which as a result, they break up. Even already dating years or months, theres no diffrence at all. Well, I used to have girlfriend before, dating 5 years, loving and caring till one day.. it melts. Maybe she dont like me wearing PINK.. but I like PINK. haha
valentines is coming next month, its another Single life celebration. I wish someone will come up to me and ask me out, a friend, can be a girl or can be also a guy, well, valentines is meant for friends, not just those in relationship. I just wish.. but i do not think people will ask me out.
Just imagine I am hugging someone.. haha (from behind)
Well, Happy Chinese NIU year.. hehe
What I am doing these 4 days? Bought a modem, (not able to online for 2 days already), and on the second day, me and my family went to a lunch (just opposite of the Menteri Besar of Perak house) hehe.. Yes its a BIG house. Theres is more.. I will share to all next blog. And will share to all my God brother details. hehe.
Plz la all my friends, leave a comment on every post of mine. Are you Shy? haha
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Let It Be...
I like tis Song and I always make myself a "let it be" person,
less stress.
LET IT BE (The Beatles)
When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be.
And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree,
There will be an answer, let it be.
For though they may be parted there is
Still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be. Yeah
There will be an answer, let it be.
And when the night is cloudy,
There is still a light that shines on me,
Shine on until tomorrow, let it be.
I wake up to the sound of music
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be.
Let it be, let it be.
There will be an answer, let it be.
Let it be, let it be,
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be
Well, these days not able to update my blog..
been so busy that I dont have time to
have a good sleep everyday.
I will write about it as soon as
I can get a day not working OVERTIME ;)
See ya Brothers and Sisters
Saturday, January 10, 2009
Self Evaluation
This time I am going to kick my own ass, what I feel of myself.. I am going to be very honest in this column..
Since at young age, I do not have much interest in particular subjects taught in school, especially those subjects my dad were skilled in (Yes, my dad was a teacher) such as, Maths (I believe many will laugh at me), chinese (although I am from a chinese school), PE aka Pendidikan Jasmani, (1, I used to have asthma, and 2, I have a broken arm since childhood, thus my left arm cannot pull straight but I am still able to carry out tasks :p), Moral, (does not make any sense if you fail or pass!) . So I am regretting not following his guidance. Just for your little information, I am quite good at English, Arts, Bahasa Malaysia, History (especially Foreign history not Malaysia History) . The truth behind all this was that, I do not like to be force my way in scoring A's just to save my dad face who worked as a teacher. (He was in Yuk choy, Jalan Pasir Puteh, Batu Gajah, and Penang as a teacher, all secondary schools). Sometimes I do not feel regreting at all. The thing is, the communication between my family and me is bery limited, they always talks about their old stories, and a word "NO" means you can't do anything (else you be put away from this home forever) , thats a very bad threat in a family, where they still think that scoring is everything, at most I feel that they were saving faces from his friends. Well, until today, they are still the same. Me and my family rarely have any topic to talk about, because before they even answer you, you already know what they are going to say, you get what I mean? Its so often til you know what they will say. Do you think I can find someone dating during school years? "NO". Go holiday with classmates? "NO", now at least I can pay my own stuff that I want to buy. or do anything I wish I can do before. I know its a bit too late, but thats part of my life, no one knows. People always see me smiling, but I have many sad things and no one to share with, talks to, I do not have a BEST friend, I wish I have one, everyone has one.. except me.
I have an elder brother (the family of four), yeah that puts me as the youngest child in the family. Well, I do not know what happen, I am treated like I am the stupiest person in the whole world. I am not able to compete on his examination results, activities etc. My brother always finding something to step on me, say I am stupid, or I do not know everything, and always want to think I am not able to perform well in any work after school and University. He is very arrogant, I do not like him much, or maybe as a brother, I just give 20% just by the means as a brother. When I see others, their brother and sister are always talkative, supporting, and I am so admired to them.
My nature is a Kind person, absolutely kind til sometimes I help too much. But at least I care to help. I do not mind helping people, mainly because thats my true self. If anyone ask for me, I will try my best to do it.
I like seeing people smiling, mainly because I know I had a very bad childhood, and it'll be sad to see people with sad faces. Thats why, I am trying to make everyone laugh by doing or making funny stuff for them to laugh about.
I am a "Let it Be" person, just do not bother too much, when you are very pissed off on something or stress,, just tell yourself, "Let it Be".. it does not mean we do not care, just temporary see one thing to another to give your mind a rest. I always get scolded because I always "Let it Be", but actually, WHO on earth want yourself to see YOU become crazy? Insane? haha you wont be paid to be in such state of craziness! I still care for a person even I say so, because, we have to understand a person without any rush!
I like to go for clubbings. Mostly I went to places like ZOUK, Velvet Underground, but thats the time while I am staying in KL. Oh, anyone who knows LQ (Liquid)? Yeah, I run into there a few times. I do not drink Calsberg, or Tiger.. lolx maybe just order a cocktail sit there chat with friends. (I wish to try that "GraveYard" drink.. , its a mix of few potions hehe). If anyone of you who asked me out clubbing in Ipoh, chances of me saying YES is 60%. Or out for movies, yumcha etc. I really need to build up more friends. If you who read this, and if you are welcome to be my friend (aiya JUST a friend, dont think so much) then can leave your contact so we can plan it out. (if the time you are sad, you can talk with me anytime)
Mindset.. is very open. I can accept scene of a couple french kissing in the street. Which means I am as well dare to do so myself haha. I can accept anyone who likes girls or guys or both, therefore you can now know my charcter la.
About Love.. traditional people.. dating is dating, and will never easily give up Love, will do anything to make both happier. Long Lasting. Its not easy finding someone, but finding someone usually they already have partner.. sad... some even say not possible (not even trying).. some say no looking for relationship (and later they turn up to be attached.. what a lie) Love is everywhere, but I cant grab a single one, not because I am "choosy" but of cuz everyone is looking for a person that suits, I dislike fat people, so wont look for someone weighting high etc.
NOTE: I have just lost my wallet... I went out at night, came back didnt notice I lost it before come home or cant be found at home.. haiz... bad day.
Even though people I have chatted before, and feel shy to talk with them again, dunno why. I look at people a lot, and many scared I am looking at them, now people do not even greet me.. I feel so sad..
I sometimes hate myself, not able to do anything, I wish from here (my blog) people who is reading my blog.. can be friends with me. Ignore those points you hate about me. I am so eager to find friends here. Most of my friends turns out to talk politics, which I try not to step into it. There is much to talk in life than arguing in politics. let us find the similiar interest we have and be friends.
I am scared in life, no one understand me, I scare I have no money, I scare I cant survive, not about dead, but to survive in this world.
Since at young age, I do not have much interest in particular subjects taught in school, especially those subjects my dad were skilled in (Yes, my dad was a teacher) such as, Maths (I believe many will laugh at me), chinese (although I am from a chinese school), PE aka Pendidikan Jasmani, (1, I used to have asthma, and 2, I have a broken arm since childhood, thus my left arm cannot pull straight but I am still able to carry out tasks :p), Moral, (does not make any sense if you fail or pass!) . So I am regretting not following his guidance. Just for your little information, I am quite good at English, Arts, Bahasa Malaysia, History (especially Foreign history not Malaysia History) . The truth behind all this was that, I do not like to be force my way in scoring A's just to save my dad face who worked as a teacher. (He was in Yuk choy, Jalan Pasir Puteh, Batu Gajah, and Penang as a teacher, all secondary schools). Sometimes I do not feel regreting at all. The thing is, the communication between my family and me is bery limited, they always talks about their old stories, and a word "NO" means you can't do anything (else you be put away from this home forever) , thats a very bad threat in a family, where they still think that scoring is everything, at most I feel that they were saving faces from his friends. Well, until today, they are still the same. Me and my family rarely have any topic to talk about, because before they even answer you, you already know what they are going to say, you get what I mean? Its so often til you know what they will say. Do you think I can find someone dating during school years? "NO". Go holiday with classmates? "NO", now at least I can pay my own stuff that I want to buy. or do anything I wish I can do before. I know its a bit too late, but thats part of my life, no one knows. People always see me smiling, but I have many sad things and no one to share with, talks to, I do not have a BEST friend, I wish I have one, everyone has one.. except me.
I have an elder brother (the family of four), yeah that puts me as the youngest child in the family. Well, I do not know what happen, I am treated like I am the stupiest person in the whole world. I am not able to compete on his examination results, activities etc. My brother always finding something to step on me, say I am stupid, or I do not know everything, and always want to think I am not able to perform well in any work after school and University. He is very arrogant, I do not like him much, or maybe as a brother, I just give 20% just by the means as a brother. When I see others, their brother and sister are always talkative, supporting, and I am so admired to them.
My nature is a Kind person, absolutely kind til sometimes I help too much. But at least I care to help. I do not mind helping people, mainly because thats my true self. If anyone ask for me, I will try my best to do it.
I like seeing people smiling, mainly because I know I had a very bad childhood, and it'll be sad to see people with sad faces. Thats why, I am trying to make everyone laugh by doing or making funny stuff for them to laugh about.
I am a "Let it Be" person, just do not bother too much, when you are very pissed off on something or stress,, just tell yourself, "Let it Be".. it does not mean we do not care, just temporary see one thing to another to give your mind a rest. I always get scolded because I always "Let it Be", but actually, WHO on earth want yourself to see YOU become crazy? Insane? haha you wont be paid to be in such state of craziness! I still care for a person even I say so, because, we have to understand a person without any rush!
I like to go for clubbings. Mostly I went to places like ZOUK, Velvet Underground, but thats the time while I am staying in KL. Oh, anyone who knows LQ (Liquid)? Yeah, I run into there a few times. I do not drink Calsberg, or Tiger.. lolx maybe just order a cocktail sit there chat with friends. (I wish to try that "GraveYard" drink.. , its a mix of few potions hehe). If anyone of you who asked me out clubbing in Ipoh, chances of me saying YES is 60%. Or out for movies, yumcha etc. I really need to build up more friends. If you who read this, and if you are welcome to be my friend (aiya JUST a friend, dont think so much) then can leave your contact so we can plan it out. (if the time you are sad, you can talk with me anytime)
Mindset.. is very open. I can accept scene of a couple french kissing in the street. Which means I am as well dare to do so myself haha. I can accept anyone who likes girls or guys or both, therefore you can now know my charcter la.
About Love.. traditional people.. dating is dating, and will never easily give up Love, will do anything to make both happier. Long Lasting. Its not easy finding someone, but finding someone usually they already have partner.. sad... some even say not possible (not even trying).. some say no looking for relationship (and later they turn up to be attached.. what a lie) Love is everywhere, but I cant grab a single one, not because I am "choosy" but of cuz everyone is looking for a person that suits, I dislike fat people, so wont look for someone weighting high etc.
NOTE: I have just lost my wallet... I went out at night, came back didnt notice I lost it before come home or cant be found at home.. haiz... bad day.
Even though people I have chatted before, and feel shy to talk with them again, dunno why. I look at people a lot, and many scared I am looking at them, now people do not even greet me.. I feel so sad..
I sometimes hate myself, not able to do anything, I wish from here (my blog) people who is reading my blog.. can be friends with me. Ignore those points you hate about me. I am so eager to find friends here. Most of my friends turns out to talk politics, which I try not to step into it. There is much to talk in life than arguing in politics. let us find the similiar interest we have and be friends.
I am scared in life, no one understand me, I scare I have no money, I scare I cant survive, not about dead, but to survive in this world.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
A Dead soul...
I am not a very good at building or finding a relationship or a friendship. The only thing I do is admiring people until they fade away in times. Reasons? I am Shy, scare to be rejected, dont know how to ask people out, or start a simple conversation. All I did was a "HI" and .. The End..
Even making friends, most of my friends were the ones who start talking with me, instead of I go talk with them. Girl and boy are the same. Only after that I am always not shy away find them for chit chats. I talk alot. I do admit that I have plenty of Friends who are girls. I do have guy as friends. But thats obvious. Yes I do like making friends, just dunno how on earth I will start be the one who actually starts the conversation. Thats why, for my kind of guy, starting a relationship could be so hard. But building one, its what I do to make it long and steady. I had dating experience before, it last quite long.. 5 fingers.. but Now, finding someone is so hard. Many say I may find the one soon.. thats just something people usually say. For myself, maybe I am confused with own sexual orientation lol.. or just happen to become complicated. Beacuse of my weakness, I am already start opening the door, to whoever is finding a true and serious soul partner. Its not easy to find one, when u happened to see many thought they found someone, but later after marriage, both go seperated! What a stupid thing to do. Yea, its a taboo topic. Have anyone watch these following movies?
1) Brokeback Mountain (USA)
2) Eternal Summer (Taiwan + Hong Kong)
3) I am not What You Want (Hong Kong) ~ aka Angel
4) Latter Days (USA)
5) Formula 17 (Taiwan)
etc.
These movies depicting someone who has a complicated mindset in finding a real love. There maybe no real defination for real love, but it maybe someone who is watching you all along, not a hamsap look of cause. I like finding International + foregn language movies. I know the time you watched these, maybe make you a shock. But watching movies is to know the story line and life experience of certain individuals. It is worth watching.
Anyhow, I am deeply confuse on my own. Sometime may wonder the whole day, people staring back at me, makes me want to ask why, but I just dont dare to approach them. Sometims its a hint from someone, example, always park you vehicle next to the vehicle even though there are other parking spaces available at the same time, or walking and want to make some eye contact when passing the person (when you walked) etc. These maybe hints, and I never have the guts to go for it. I mean both guy and girls.
Is there anyone out there had the same experience that I have? do share with me. Who stare at you and whats your reaction etc. I dont mind people hate to talk about it, because its a personal thing.
Even making friends, most of my friends were the ones who start talking with me, instead of I go talk with them. Girl and boy are the same. Only after that I am always not shy away find them for chit chats. I talk alot. I do admit that I have plenty of Friends who are girls. I do have guy as friends. But thats obvious. Yes I do like making friends, just dunno how on earth I will start be the one who actually starts the conversation. Thats why, for my kind of guy, starting a relationship could be so hard. But building one, its what I do to make it long and steady. I had dating experience before, it last quite long.. 5 fingers.. but Now, finding someone is so hard. Many say I may find the one soon.. thats just something people usually say. For myself, maybe I am confused with own sexual orientation lol.. or just happen to become complicated. Beacuse of my weakness, I am already start opening the door, to whoever is finding a true and serious soul partner. Its not easy to find one, when u happened to see many thought they found someone, but later after marriage, both go seperated! What a stupid thing to do. Yea, its a taboo topic. Have anyone watch these following movies?
1) Brokeback Mountain (USA)
2) Eternal Summer (Taiwan + Hong Kong)
3) I am not What You Want (Hong Kong) ~ aka Angel
4) Latter Days (USA)
5) Formula 17 (Taiwan)
etc.
These movies depicting someone who has a complicated mindset in finding a real love. There maybe no real defination for real love, but it maybe someone who is watching you all along, not a hamsap look of cause. I like finding International + foregn language movies. I know the time you watched these, maybe make you a shock. But watching movies is to know the story line and life experience of certain individuals. It is worth watching.
Anyhow, I am deeply confuse on my own. Sometime may wonder the whole day, people staring back at me, makes me want to ask why, but I just dont dare to approach them. Sometims its a hint from someone, example, always park you vehicle next to the vehicle even though there are other parking spaces available at the same time, or walking and want to make some eye contact when passing the person (when you walked) etc. These maybe hints, and I never have the guts to go for it. I mean both guy and girls.
Is there anyone out there had the same experience that I have? do share with me. Who stare at you and whats your reaction etc. I dont mind people hate to talk about it, because its a personal thing.
Sing along with me .. If you like the band
SCORPION
UNDER THE SAME SUN
Lyric:
I saw the morning
It was shattered by a gun
Heard a scream, saw him fall, no one cried
I saw a mother
She was praying for her son
Bring him back, let him live, don't let him die
Do you ever ask yourself
Is there a Heaven in the sky
Why can't we get it right
'cause we all live under the same sun
We all walk under the same moon
Then why, why can't we live as one
I saw the evening
Fading shadows one by one
We watch the lamb, lay down to the sacrifice
I saw the children
The children of the sun
How they wept, how they bled, how they died
Do you ever ask yourself
Is there a Heaven in the sky
Why can't we stop the fight
'cause we all live under the same sun
We all walk under the same moon
Then why, why can't we live as one
Sometimes I think I'm going mad
We're loosing all we had and no one seems to care
But in my heart it doesn't change
We've got to rearrange and bring our world some love
And does it really matter
If there's a heaven up above
We sure could use some love
'cause we all live under the same sun
We all walk under the same moon
Then why, why can't we live as one
'cause we all live under the same sky
We all look up at the same stars
Then why, tell me why can't we live as one
UNDER THE SAME SUN
Lyric:
I saw the morning
It was shattered by a gun
Heard a scream, saw him fall, no one cried
I saw a mother
She was praying for her son
Bring him back, let him live, don't let him die
Do you ever ask yourself
Is there a Heaven in the sky
Why can't we get it right
'cause we all live under the same sun
We all walk under the same moon
Then why, why can't we live as one
I saw the evening
Fading shadows one by one
We watch the lamb, lay down to the sacrifice
I saw the children
The children of the sun
How they wept, how they bled, how they died
Do you ever ask yourself
Is there a Heaven in the sky
Why can't we stop the fight
'cause we all live under the same sun
We all walk under the same moon
Then why, why can't we live as one
Sometimes I think I'm going mad
We're loosing all we had and no one seems to care
But in my heart it doesn't change
We've got to rearrange and bring our world some love
And does it really matter
If there's a heaven up above
We sure could use some love
'cause we all live under the same sun
We all walk under the same moon
Then why, why can't we live as one
'cause we all live under the same sky
We all look up at the same stars
Then why, tell me why can't we live as one
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